Ma chérie • Kylian Mbappe

18. Sleepover

"This is so cute, like I'm really getting jealous at you two", Bruna said as I told her about what had happened between me and Kylian after the party.

"I know, I am very grateful to have him. What about you and Ney? Everything's alright?", I asked her while we were walking through a store and looking at different dresses.

"At the moment it's pretty good between us, but I'm afraid when the next argument will happen", she told me.

"What do you mean when the next argument will happen? Why should there be one in the first place?"

"It's just, I know Ney. He is so fucking jealous and possessive all the time. It's really giving me a hard time sometimes.."

"I mean he told me about your fight the last time and he was extremely upset Bruna. He was so afraid to have lost you once and for all, but then he said you talked about everything. I thought you sorted it out?", I said.

"Mhm, yes we did. But we have these discussions a lot. Not this thoroughly, yes that's true, but still it's always somehow the same and therefore I am afraid when it will be the next time. For now it's good and I do love him, I really do. But on the other hand it's my job, like I earn my money with acting and on top of that it's my passion so I would never want to give that up. And it's part of my job to act like I'm in love with a guy for a telenovela and to make out with him. Ney doesn't understand this. He wants me to be happy, but even when he doesn't say anything, I see it in his eyes. I see the pain he tries to hide from me until he eventually explodes. It's hard, I don't know. Like it hurts me too to see him like this, but I really don't know where this is going. We did this for so many times and sooner or later there was always a moment where he couldn't stay calm any longer and I also don't want to feel guilty all the time..", Bruna told me.

"Wow, this is really sad", I took a deep breath, "This sounds like you don't even believe in your relationship anymore?"

"I don't know Emma. I can't really make it out how I feel. It feels like my love for him tries to fight against everything, but in my head I know that this relationship will always be complicated."

"Oh man I'm so sorry Bruna. I get your point and understand it all, but this is so difficult I'm afraid I can't give you any good tips on that one. You have to make it out for yourself if you want to keep on fighting for this relationship or to call it quits for once and all so you both can get on with your lives", I told her rubbing my temple.

"Let's talk about something else. I know I have to sort this out sometime soon, but also I don't want to think about it now. How do you like this dress?", she pulled out a short red dress holding it in front of her body and giving me a big smile.

Even though she's smiling, now I know she's really hurting deep inside and that makes me feel bad as well. I wish I could help her somehow, but I can't. She loves acting and she loves Neymar and Neymar also loves her, with that I am sure. But it's true that this will always cause problems and stand between them..

"I think it suits you pretty good. You should try that on!", I smiled back at her and she took it into the changing room.

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"How was your shopping day with Bruna?", Kylian wanted to know as he laid down with me on my couch, placing his head into my lap.

He had just come back from his training.

"It was good, I bought some really nice stuff", I said caressing his head.

"That's good, can't wait to see it", he smirked with his eyes closed enjoying my touch.

"How was training?", I asked him.

"Pretty good, but also very exhausting. Like I'm really tired", he yawned making me chuckle at how cute he looks like right now.