Special Smile // Jadon Sancho

Chapter 21

Song for this chapter: i'm a mess - omah lay
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"Oh, now I'm your baby again," I asked him, anger churning. He started to speak, but I didn't want to hear it. „NO! You don't have to say anything. I should have known better, that  a normal girl like me is too good for Mister Professional Footballer", but in my anger I went one better: "Fuck you Jadon!  Be honest, that's why you don't want to public our relationsh-" I didn't get any further.

He interrupted me.  "Can you stop talking so much shit?!" He put me into a state of shock, because I've never seen him so loud and a mixture of anger and sadness gathered in his eyes. „You know damn well, that's not right! Please listen to me first".  "No Jadon.  There's no good explanation for that", I replied. He took a deep breath, closing his eyes. He seemed to relax himself.

Tears formed in my eyes and I couldn't hold them back much longer.  He slowly walked towards me and wanted to wipe away my tear with one hand.  "Britt, baby.. please just listen to me." I backed away. A tear rolled down his face, which he quickly wiped away.

"If we weren't in Manchester, I'd be gone a long time," I said simply. Still irritated but also a bit calmer than in the beginning. Something in his eyes just calmed me down so much. I hated him for it at the moment.

"Listen.  I honestly don't know why I said that.  But what I do know is that I love you so much.  Britt you make me so happy and I feel indescribable.  It scares me.  Of course I grew up in a big and loving family and in my culture you love your family and stuff like that.  But sometimes I have no idea how to deal with you and my emotions. You understand? I want to make our relationship public, just not now.  It's all a bit complicated and I know that, but unfortunately I can't change it.  I was always private, the public knew almost nothing about me for a long time.  Please come downstairs and let me introduce you to the boys. Correctly", he said and as he spoke his tears flowed every now and then and a smile escaped him again and again.

"Jadon," I said, completely overwhelmed. "Please baby," he almost begged me.  "Not now.  I'll come back down. But not now", I decided. "Okay. Anything you want my lady," he then said with a slight smile on his lips, taking my hand and kissing the palm.  A smile escaped me now and when I noticed how he saw it, I quickly looked away.

"I'm still mad at you," I then said in a monotonous voice. "As you should," he looked at me like a small child realizing his mistake, his eyes still glistening with tears. "Now leave", I snorted and took it personally when he called me lady.  He smiled and shook his head before walking to the door.  Just before leaving the room, he said, "I love you, Brittan." I didn't answer and flopped back onto the bed.

Louise took the call after the second pipe.  "This is Louise Estrella, what can I help with?" she asked playfully. I rolled my eyes and laughed, "Honey, I need your advice. About Jadon."  Her voice immediately went serious: "ohoh.  I'm listening." I told her everything, a little slowly and uncertainly, not knowing if she was still pissed off with him about London.

"What a asshole!" was her first conclusion. "BUT THEN," I continued.  And I told her the rest, more or less the part when he spilled his heart out.  "Well... maybe he's not an ass after all," she said slowly and quietly. I couldn't help but laugh. "I know, that's how I felt..." I then said.  "I just wanted to talk to you to make sure I wasn't being manipulated.  Once again." I then said.

"Nah, I don't think so," Louise began. "I hate to say it.. but I believe him. He may be a self-confident guy on the outside, but he probably doesn't know much about love. At least that kind of love, I have no idea.  But he's actually a great guy and he understood his mistake immediately and fought for you".  "I think so too," I said to her. "Well, he's famous and it's great that he doesn't want to screw everything up and make it public," she continued.