Special Smile // Jadon Sancho

Chapter 30

Song for this chapter: propeller - JAE5 & Dave
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"Why are you putting yourself under so much pressure?" I began. Jadon gave a deep sigh before he answered: "I had to work hard to be where I am today. I went to many academies and had to struggle through, was evaluated and  That's the only way I got my opportunities. A lot of people don't see it and don't understand it. There's a lot of judgment and especially after Euros2022 I'm focused on doing everything well. I know that my grandma in heaven is proud, I know that  my brother in heaven is proud of me but here... everything can always change in the present you know you only get one chance and you have to think through every decision and be sure of yourself and then add to that, our relationship with it, it's getting a bit much".

I just stared at him.  I don't know why but I was speechless.  "What about our relationship?" I asked anxiously. "Do you want to end it?"  I kept digging.  "For heaven's sake no baby.  That's exactly what I don't want.  But there's a lot of attention on me right now.  I don't want to drag you in 'cause it ain't always great here.  I know how relationships work, but they can also end in public.  I've heard that too many times and believe me.  It didn't even end well because people still had something to say about it". He looked at me, shaken. He looked utterly exhausted, and I felt a strange feeling that I can't describe.

"Babe.. why do you care so much what people think of you?  I know you're in the public eye, but try to hide it.  You know, when we met, I didn't give a damn what you do or what you do for a living.  Do you even earn any money?" I had to smile briefly while speaking and then quickly continued: "I smelled your perfume and saw your smile. This damn beautiful and great smile, it's special. At least for me. Because all I knew was:  This is the man I want to meet. And it turns out he's my soulmate. The love of my life. A healer. Who's also damn good looking and damn talented. And his hobby, his passion and his talent is how he earns his money. Babe you're in the England squad, you're here to train. For the World Cup!! Not just me but everyone especially you couldn't be prouder of you".

With these words I ended my motivational speech and meanwhile I held his hands tightly in mine.  I kept staring into his eyes and stroking his hand.  And yet I only now noticed that he was crying.  A tear fell and he squeezed my hands tightly.  Very strong.  He lifted my hand now and pressed her firmly to his mouth and you could hear the intense kiss on my palm. „Baby.  I love you so much.  I don't know what I did to deserve you, but you don't understand how grateful I am," he said through sobs.

"I love you too, Jadon," I replied softly. "Sorry to bring that up..." I said softly.  But he heard it anyway: "No baby, thank you!  You care about my feelings. Thank you", now he leaned so far forward and I understood immediately what he had in mind. It was followed by a passionate kiss across the table and then our food came.

For the rest of dinner we just talk about nice things.  It was a dreamlike evening with a dreamlike man.  I wish the moment could stay like this forever because somehow everything is so perfectly mixed up right now.  Does this make sense?

After paying and a few drinks after dessert, we decided to go to the beach.  It was now dark and the air was very pleasantly warm but not too hot.  Simply perfect to despair.  Jadon held me against him with one arm.  We took off our shoes and I threw them somewhere in the sand.  My cell phone flew right after it.  "What will that be when it's done?" Jadon laughed. "I don't know but it's kind of liberating," I laughed back.

He shook his head and imitated me. „You're right," he said and sneaked up to me. Then he tried to grab me, but I was able to dodge in time and ran away. "Ohhhh just wait!"  Jadon shouted at me and pursued me.  For a moment my life was like in a movie.  And I've never felt so free.