Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Seven: Rewind

ZAYN POV

We came back for about two days now, and  I finally decided it was time to end things with Perrie. I can't lie her nor to myself anymore, I am in love with Niall.

I dialled her number.

"Hey baby, I've missed you. Wanna go somewhere tonight?"  Perrie said.

"Hey Perrie, okay, let's go to the park." I respond.

"Okay, babe, be there in five." She said, hanging up.

We hung up, and I walked over to the park. I was a little nervous, about this, I don't know how she will take this. We've dated for about four months, and I don't want to hurt anyone.

"Zayn over here." Perrie waved at me sitting on a park bench, before putting her phone away. She made her way over to me and kissed me on the cheek.

"Perrie, I wanted to talk-" But she put her finger over my lips.

"Wait, Zayn, I need to tell you something too." She said. I wonder what she is going to say.

"We need to break up." She said. I looked at her indifferent. That was not what I was expecting, but then I ask her why.

"I'm sorry, Zayn, but I just don't feel the same anymore." She said, biting her lips.

"Oh...... okay.. I understand." I replied. For some reason, I wasn't sad or anything. I was actually glad, but didn't want to show it. I guess no one has to get hurt today.

"So, I guess I should leave now. Bye!" She took a step back, and then walked in the opposite direction, and then started to talk to someone on her phone.

"Wow." I whispered to myself blinking a couple of times. That was easy. I turned around and walked home and the instant I dropped on my bed, I fell asleep.

NIALL POV

I haven't talked to Zayn for the past two days, and I don't know where we are right now. Friends or what?

I'm also a little worried. I still haven't told him about my heart problem. My birthday is coming up in three months, and I'll be turning nineteen, then from there, it'll be two years left. I'm getting tired now, I should just stop thinking and go to sleep. Stop worrying Niall.

The next morning was another day of summer. What am I going to do today? Hang out with Jen and Jordon? Hmm.. maybe I'll just sleep a little more today. Ever since I came back from the trip, life's been pretty boring, and I haven't talked to anyone, but except text Jordon, and that's pretty much it.

I feel so depressed for the past couple days, like nothing is fun anymore, not when Zayn is not around. I want to be able to hug him again, and him to hold me to his chest. I miss hearing his heartbeat, and his scent.

Is this love?

No I can't love him. I can't be with him, I'll have to leave him someday. I don't want to hurt him. Maybe someday he'll find his true love, but it won't be me.

ZAYN POV

[A few days later]

I haven't seen or talked to Niall in so long. I texted him, and called him, but there is no response. I really hope that he's okay. If he isn't, I might go crazy.

Is he avoiding me? No, he can't we've been together for three weeks straight, he couldn't possibly hate me. I had so much fun, and if I'm not wrong, I'd say that he had a great time too. So what could be the problem?

I called Jen, and she said, she hasn't talked to him in days. I asked her where he lived, and she gave me his address. When I rang the bell, a women opened the door.

"Hi, I'm Zayn, Niall's friend. Is Niall home?" I ask her politely. "Well hello there Zayn, I'm Lisa, and Niall just stepped out an hour ago. He didn't tell me where he was going though, and said he doesn't know when he'll be back, but he'll call to tell me." She said.

"Okay, thanks." We said good-bye and I left. Where could he have gone?

I kept walking, and thought about going to the beach to relax a bit more. I don't want to think about anything, I'm so worried about Niall right now.

NIALL POV

I decided to go to the beach, but didn't tell Lisa. I didn't say when I'll be back, but I will call her to let her know I'm okay. I wanted to swim again, to try and wash away all my sadness. I wanted to forget about everything. Maybe it was wrong to just leave Zayn, without telling him anything. It isn't fair to him, but I know it's for his own good. He has to move on.

I reached the beach, and took off my clothes, and dived into the water. I swam until I got tired and lazily floated. "I don't ever want to go back." I whisper to myself, laying on my back on the water, taking deep breaths.

ZAYN POV

So, I made it to the beach, it's pretty empty here, except for an old couple, holding hands walking along the shore. The sun was not so hot anymore, and was beginning to set. I took a seat on the sand, closing my eyes. The  breeze blew at me, and I realized I was getting a bit cold. I rubbed my shoulders with my hands.

Just then, I saw another boy around my age, getting out of the water, he walked closer to his pile of clothes and dried himself off. I couldn't see his face that clearly, and it was getting a lot dimmer by the second. His hair looked almost blonde.

I decided to go back home now. I stood up and walked towards the sidewalk, passing by the blonde boy who was putting on his shirt, and I realized it was Niall.

The boy was Niall.

I walked closer to him, while he was picking up his stuff and too busy to look at me. "Niall?" I said softly. He didn't seem to hear me the first time, so I called him again, louder.

"Niall." I repeated. He looked up at me surprised, and finally spoke. "Hi Zayn...."

"Where have you been? I've been trying to contact you, but you never answered me. What's wrong?" I asked worried. He looked down. "I-I...I.. don't want to talk about it." he said.

Here he was, standing in front of me, and didn't want to tell me anything. I don't believe this. I told him I loved him, and the last day of the trip, we were together and going to well. Why did he change so much now? And why?

"I have to go." He said. And that was it.

We didn't see each other or talked anymore for a while, after that. I acted like nothing was wrong, but deep inside, I knew I was lying to myself. I want to know what happened to him, but now it's like we rewinded back to before graduation, when we didn't talk or anything.

NIALL POV

It's for his own good. I thought to myself. He can't possibly be with me; We just weren't meant to be. 

I called Jen. "Oh my gosh hey Niall ! We haven't talked for a week, what happened." Jen said. "Zayn was asking me about you, and it had me worried." Jen said. "Hey Jen.. Let's hang out tomorrow, all three of us, I have to tell you guys something." I said.

"Okay, where should we meet?" Jen asked. "How about the park tomorrow. At 11:00." I replied. "Sounds good, see you there then." Jen said, and we hung up.