Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Seventeen: Decisions

[Five Months Later...]

NIALL POV

August 31, 2014

Today, is the last day of the month. In September, I'm go back to Chicago. Sure, I missed Jen, Jordon, and the others, but was I ready now?

I have two more days to left. I sure miss all my old friends, but still not sure whether I can face Zayn yet. What if he still has feelings for me? Most likely not; it's been one entire year, he should have a new boyfriend or girlfriend by now.

The truth is, I haven't been following up on the things happening in Chicago, ever since Jen asked me if I was coming back. I've been trying to run away from reality, but it's just so exhausting now.

Right now, I'm about to get ready to go out. There's this ceremony for completing a year for this program. Ash told me not to be late, or else. Better get going now.

-Niallssssss <3

ZAYN POV

In the past three months, I had to rethink my whole entire relationship with Niall. He was such a waste of my time. I don't even know why I loved him in the first place. He can be so greedy when he eats, and take extremely long showers, and sleeps until the afternoon.

I sighed.

Who am I kidding, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Is he even coming back anymore? I swear, if he doesn't, I'm going to fly over to L.A. and look for him myself.

My cellphone rang. I picked up my phone and answered it.

"Hello?"

"NIALL IS COMING BACK TOMORROW!" Jen yelled out.

My heart began to race. My Niall is finally coming back. I hope he doesn't want to not see me. Is he going to be living in the same dorm as me again? I had my whole entire room cleaned. I was always ready for him to come back.

"Hello?? Zayn? Why aren't you responding? I said Niall is coming back tomorrow!" She said again.

"I heard you the first time." I said. "Well? Aren't you excited?" She said.

"Yes, but what if Niall doesn't want to see me." I replied. "Don't think like that Zayn, I think he's forgotten everything about that." She said. Yeah, he forgot everything, he forgot about us, and all our times spent together. I stood there in silence.

"Well, I have to go now. See ya later." She said, and then hung up. My heart pounded, in excitement and in fear.

"I promised myself, Niall, that when you come back, I will get you back again. It doesn't matter how much it takes; until you are back with me, I will not stop." I looked over to the calendar, and it was September 2, 2014. Eleven days until Niall's birthday. This year, I was going to give him the best birthday he will ever have.

NIALL POV

"Ashley, are you in a hurry to get back to Chicago or something." I asked her, and she started to walk slower.

"No, Niall, I'm just really excited. I can finally see my family and friends again." She spoke almost with a gleam in her eyes. "Aren't you excited?" She asked me.

"Mmm, a little." I said. "Don't worry Niall, I'm pretty sure you and Zayn will get along just fine." She said.

"Yeah... I bet." I said. Before I knew it, she started walking fast again, so I rolled my eyes and walked faster to catch up.

"Seriously, I'm getting tired, please walk a little slower." I complained. "Fine, but we're almost there anyways, might as well get there so we can sit down." She said pointing over to our gate, and the waiting seats.

I nodded, and continued walking and finally sat down. A few minutes later, the airplane arrived, and passengers began boarding. We lined up.

In about ten minutes, we got everything settled, and sat in our seats.

"Four more hours Niall!!!" She screamed next to me.

"Okay, Ash, while you keep screaming, I'll be sleeping. Night." I said. The ride home was at 10 PM, and by the time we got back, it would be 2 AM.

I started to have a dream.

"Welcome back Niall" Jordon said, hugging me. Then Jen, and Kyle, and Shannon. But no Zayn.

"Where's Zayn?" I asked.

"Who's Zayn?"  Jen asked.

"You know, Zayn? From high school?" I said a little confused.

"Oh, you mean that Zayn? He left." Jen said.

"What do you mean he 'left'?" I was getting more confused. "You know, like moved on?" Jordon added. Moved on..? What?

"Zayn died last month. He suicided." Shannon said, then handed us, some cans of beer. "To Niall returning." I didn't like this. Why would he do that? I felt tears coming out of my face. Why would anyone want to commit suicide. Was it because of me?

After the little party, I went to the dorm room that I lived in with Zayn. I saw my old diary on the desk. I opened it up and the first thing  saw was

August 1, 2014

Niall left me for a year now. I need him with me by my side. Why won't he understand? I love him still, and nothing can change that. I just don't want to be alone anymore. There isn't anything to live for anymore.

Goodbye Niall.

-Zayn

What. That's it? No, that can't be it. I franticly flipped through some more pages, but most of them had been ripped out, and only my entries were left. The door knocked, and I went over to open it.

"Niall~ We're going to Six Flags, come on, everyone's waiting for you." Jen said.

"No, how could you guys be so cold-hearted?? What about Zayn? Don't you guys feel bad about that???" Jen replied, "No, Niall, we know you don't love him anymore. It's been a year now, just move on."

"NO! I WON'T MOVE ON! I LOVE ZAYN." I broke down. "I just want Zayn back."

Suddenly, I woke up. I looked around, and it was dark, everyone was sleeping, even Ashley.

Ughh, what a horrible nightmare.

Did I still love Zayn? I want to say no, but why does my heart say something else?