Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Twenty: Fear

NIALL POV

"Go ahead, and die. I don't care anymore if you don't care." Zayn said to me.

"What the fuck are you talking about." I said to him.

"Yeah? You said you don't care anymore. You just want to be able to live your own life without anyone. How is that turning out for you?" He said back to me.

"Shut the fuck up. I don't want to listen to you anymore. Go away." I shouted back.

Everything went black, and I was by myself.

"You wasted all your life Niall, you have nothing left. You didn't even bother to live your life to its fullest; trying to avoid everyone you make contact with." A voice said.

"You lost it all now Niall. This is what you wanted isn't it? To leave everyone behind so you wouldn't hurt them? Well you did hurt them." it continued to talk. I don't want to hear anymore. I was crying. It's all my fault.

I woke up and checked the clock, and calendar. It was only September 15, 2014. I had a horrible nightmare. I was a little depressed, but was my dream telling me that I wasn't living my life to its fullest?

"Niall, good morning." Zayn said to me. I was on good conditions with him again. I smiled to him, "Morning." We had the best time on my birthday. I was glad that I stayed on campus with him. We did things that was really fun. I missed being with him.

"Niall, are you going to go out today?" Zayn asked me. "I don't know..." I responded. He started to put on a smile. "Get dressed, we're going somewhere." He said to me. I got dressed and we stepped out. I wonder where he was going to take me today?

I didn't bother to ask him, since he wasn't going to tell me anyways.

"Okay, here we are Niall." he said to me. I was a bit confused. I didn't see anything. "I don't see anything." I said. We were in the middle of an empty highway pulled over.

"Exactly." He said, and smiled.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked him.

"Just wait and you'll see." He told me, and sat down on the paved road. I sat down next to him.

We waited for ten minutes. "Uhm, what are we waiting for..." I asked him. "Shhh, listen." he whispered. I put on a 'what the fuck' face, but just listened. I didn't hear anything. My stomach growled.

"You hear that?" He said. I shot him a confused look. "Hear what?" I asked.

"Didn't you hear a lion growl for a second." Okay, this is getting ridiculous. He brought me out here to hear my stomach growl.

"What the fuck, that was me you fucker." I said to him. He started laughing. I was not amused.

"What are you laughing at." I said exasperated. I'm hungry, and here we are sitting in the middle of no where, doing absolutely nothing.

"Why did you even take me here. This is the most retarded thing anyone has done for me." I said to him, but he kept laughing.

He got up, and pulled out a blanket, and a basket. Then, sprawled it across the pavement. "I came here to have a picnic with you." Zayn said smiling to me. Coming out here in the middle of nowhere, then waiting for half an hour, to wait for me to be hungry, and finally eating.

"Sheesh, was all of that really necessary?" I asked him.

"Yes. I wanted to spend some time with you." He said. We weren't going out or anything, but I secretly enjoyed it. I was still in love with Zayn. Maybe I should give him another chance. No. Then the whole entire year would've been for nothing.