Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Fourteen: Forgive and Forget

ZAYN POV

I know I've screwed up. I forget about my boyfriend's birthday practically spent the whole day with someone else, and then get slapped by Niall. He's never hit me before. I probably deserved it. How can I ever make him forgive me now.

I pace back and forth around the room. He hasn't responded to any of my texts or calls, and has been out for the past two hours. I hope he's okay right now. No, he has to be okay. I should stop thinking about these things right now. I need to find Niall.

Out of anger and frustration, I start punching a pillow. Please come back Niall. I need you- A little journal falls out of the pillow case.  

This is Niall's diary? I flip through the pages, and see the most recent one. on 9/13/12. I skim through the page. Niall was so happy about yesterday, and I ruined it for him. I continued looking through, and see his next entry on the exact same day.  

Niall was all alone for his birthday, and wanted to spend time with me. How could I have been so fucking stupid! I punched the wall this time.  

"Ugh, Niall please come back. I need you" I groaned into the pillow. "Niall, I am the worst boyfriend ever. I forgot about your birthday, and didn't spend any time with you at all. I understand why you would be mad at me, I don't expect you to forgive me that easily. Just please be okay."  

I was talking to myself. I am such an idiot.   Just then, I heard the door open. My head popped up from the pillow and turned around.  

"NIALL!" I ran up to him and hugged him. "Please Niall, I'm sorry just let me explain. I don't want to lose you. I love you Niall. I'll do anything to make things up to you just don't leave me ever again." I babbled.  

"I forgive you, Zayn." Niall whispered.   At the sound of those words, I became shocked. Niall forgave me just like that. I don't believe it. "Zayn, I had time to think in the time I was out. I realize that I love you too much. So much, that I'm scared myself." Niall said.  

"I'm not scared Niall. I know I want to be with you and only you. I want to make up everything to you." I pleaded. "It's okay Zayn, you dont have to. I just want to know why you weren't here." Niall said. I was even more shocked, but I started to explain.  

"Alright then Niall.... I was out with Perrie. She said she wanted to see me, so I went over to her, and she explained that Michael was cheating on her with her best friend. So I had to help her somehow. I was going to come back, but she took out a razor and tried to kill herself. I couldn't let that happen so I stayed with her." Niall nodded, and said he believed me.  

"I'm sorry about today though." I added. "It was my fault, I didn't have to go out with Perrie, but I made that stupid choice. I'm sorry Niall."  

"It's okay Zayn, stop saying that. I believe you, but I'm tired now, can we talk tomorrow?." He said walking towards his bed, stripped down to his boxers and getting in.   I did the same and climbed in next to him, and wrapped my arms around him.  

"Good night, Zayn" He whispered. "Good night, Niall. I love you." He murmured something I couldn't hear clearly, so I just let it go. I closed my eyes, and had a dream.  

"Niall! Please don't go. I don't want you to leave me. I love you!"  

"I'm sorry Zayn, I don't love you anymore. I love Kyle." Niall said as he kissed Kyle standing next to him. "Niall, please come back to me." I cried.

Niall's view became more distant, until I couldn't see him anymore. Everything went black. "Niall's better off without you Zayn." A Voice said, "You don't deserve him" Another voice said. "Niall deserves better than you. What can you even offer him." A third voice chimed in.