Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Twenty-Nine: Last Moment

NIALL POV

September 12, 2015

Weeks have passed since the return from Paris. I wish I could to do it all over again.

Zayn's been good to me. He's given me so much love and we never left each other's side. Well, except for now, because he went to shower, but anyways that doesn't matter. In the next three days, I don't want to do anything except spend them all with Zayn. He's all that matters to me right now and is the most important thing in my life.

To be honest, I'm really scared. I'm scared of what might happen afterwards. I'm not afraid of death, but of leaving Zayn.

All my life, I've never tried anything, but Zayn opened my eyes to so many things I never thought I would see. At first, I believed people would change and move on. In fact, some do, but not all and Zayn is evidence of that. Tonight, he was taking me out one last time, before I turn twenty-one, we spent the whole entire day together, but he insisted we keep going.

This will be my last page of entry. It's been a great run with you, but now I want to give it to someone else.

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Dear Zayn,

I don't know what else to say to you. I love you so much, that I can't even find a word to describe it. In these past three years that I've known you, I'm glad I did, because without you, I wouldn't have

The bathroom door opened, and I shut the book.  I looked up to see Zayn walk out and step towards me. I guess I can't finish the entry, now. "Niall. Ready to go?" he asked me. Zayn was going to take me out. I didn't care where it was, as long as he was with me, I was grateful.

"Yes!" I slid the diary under Zayn's pillow and jumped out of the bed, into his arms. He held me tightly. I could feel the warmth of his skin, and smell the fresh scent of him when I leaned into the crook of his neck.

"Hurry Niall, let's not waste anymore time." Zayn said, and pulled me with him. "Where are we going today?" I asked him curiously. "You'll see when we get there, now hurry." he said, and got in his car. I sighed, and got in the passenger seat. I grew a little tired and wanted to sleep, but everytime I try to drift off, Zayn would not let me. I didn't want to either. Every minute passing now was valuable and I couldn't afford to waste it.

"Niall, we're here. Don't sleep." he told me. I nodded weakly, and got out of the car. I gasped. We were at the exact same spot we met for the very first time. Zayn took out a blanket and spread it on the sand.

"Sit down." he patted the spot next to him. I took a seat, and layed my head on his shoulders. "Niall, look at the moon." he said pointing to the sky. I looked up and saw the perfectly round orb lit up in the sky. "It's beautiful, Zayn." I said, and looked at him. I slowly shut my eyes and moved towards him for a kiss. Our lips touched again for a short while, before he pulled away. "Zayn?" I asked, and he turned around.

"Niall, I have something for you." he mumbled under his breath, and turned around with something in his hand. I could barely see what it was. He opened something, and I saw a shiny ring that gleamed in the moonlight.

"Will you marry me, Niall Horan?" he asked me. I just stared at the ring. "Zayn-" I started, "Niall, I want you to marry me. Just forget about everything else. I want you to be mine forever." he said.

"Yes... Zayn." I said slowly nodding. He slid the ring into my middle finger, and continued the kiss we didn't fully get at first.

"Zayn, I'm scared." I whispered into his ear. He held onto me tightly. I don't ever want to let go. He took out his phone, and played a song, that made me cry. "Dance with me." he stood up, and took my hand. We swayed to the music, and every word I listened to stuck to my mind.

Heart beats fast, colors and promises.

How to be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid to fall.

Watching you stand, alone.

All of my doubts.

Suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer.

I have died everyday waiting for you.

Darling don't be afraid,

I have loved you for a thousand years.

I'll love you for a thousand more.

"Niall, remember when we first met?" Zayn whispered. I choked, and a tear rolled down my cheek and he wiped it away.

"If you hadn't lost your phone, we would've never met." Zayn said. "You know, If you think about it, fate can be kind of a funny thing. It was fate that brought us together. Everyday, you pass by so many people, you may never see them again in your life. If you're lucky enough, you might be able to see them just for the second time. But then, that's it."

"Then that means, we are really lucky." I smiled into his chest, and he chuckled. "I guess we are." he said. Zayn's body stiffens and shakes a little. "Zayn. Are you crying?" I ask looking up, to see tears running. I wipe them away, and kiss his lips. "Zayn, don't cry, please." I whisper. "Niall, I love you so so so so much. You know that right?" he said. "Yes, Zayn I know. I love you so much, too" I whispered. "If only we had more time."

"Zayn?" I ask. "Yeah, Niall?" he hums. "I wanted to just hear your voice." I said. I closed my eyes and layed my head on his chest to hear his heartbeat. I love him so much.

"Zayn, I'm tired." I say, but he shakes his head. "Niall, don't sleep yet." He says. "Niall, the sun is rising. Stay up please, baby. You can do it." he coaxes, but I can't. "Zayn. I can't, I'm too tir-" I feel a jolt through my body. I don't feel so well suddenly. My eyes start to shut.

"Niall? What's wrong?"  

"Niall Answer me!"

He shakes me, and pulls me towards him again. "Niall!" he calls again. but my eyes fail to open. All I can hear is Zayn's voice.

"No- not now Niall. Wake up Niall, please...."