Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Twenty-Four: Friends Again?

NIALL POV

2/6/15

I know it's been the longest time I've written. I just never had the time to do so, when especially when I was with Zayn. Now, Zayn's not even with me anymore. I guess that means coming back to you was my only option.

It's been a month since I've seen Zayn. He hasn't even texted or called; was he avoiding me? College life isn't all that great as I thought it would be. There's been so much drama here, and to make things worse, Jared. Was. My. New. Roommate.

It went something like this.

"Oh Hey Niall." He said calmly as if it was normal.

"Jared? What are you doing here...?" I asked him.

"Oh, I transferred here to study aviation. I had no idea I'd be rooming with you."  Jared responded.

It's been about two weeks since he's been here, and I'm glad that he hasn't done anything stupid in that time. I'm still not used to it. Without Zayn here, I feel so out of place.

I'm not mad at Zayn, he probably hates my guts right now, and doesn't ever want  to see me. If that's what he wants, I can't do anything about it. He has his own boyfriend.

Okay, scratch that. I am so fricken pissed, actually. Zayn didn't even say anything to me about breaking up. Didn't tell me he was moving away. Left me alone in the hospital all by myself when I needed someone most. Got together with another guy behind my back, and avoided me altogether. More reasons? Sure I have loads more reasons to be mad at Zayn, but don't get me started.

Jared hasn't been around for a while; everyday he would get up early and go to class. When I was not in class, he was. When I was, he wasn't. That's a good thing, and I want to keep it that way.

Oh, and this month's Valentine's day I'll probably be spending it alone again. Now that's just sad. Jen and her boyfriend has been getting along well. Wyatt seems pretty cool, except that he hates gays, so I always leave when he comes around. Jordon and Shannon have been at it for months now; there's absolutely no chance at them splitting up.

Kyle and Troy? Well, I haven't seen them in a long time, I heard Jordon say that they went to study abroad together in Australia; half way around the world.

As for Ashley, well, she decided to go to L.A. to visit Josh, and won't come back until spring break. What the hell, girl. I'm practically in my room or at the cafeteria eating now; this is so depressing.

I had an epiphany. For the rest of this year, I was going to become a whole new person. I want to try something different for once. I have to make my life more livable than this dump right now. They say, When life throws lemon at you, you make lemonade. Yes, that is what I'm going to do. Thank you so much diary, for being here for me even at the worst times, I love you so much.

I don't think I'll be writing any time soon from now on. I'm sorry, but there's just so much to do that to sit in my room and do nothing, right? I'm glad you support me. See you soon.

-Niall <3 lots of love bby. xoxoxo

"Hey Niall." I looked up. "Oh, hi Jared..." I said to him.

He layed down on his bed and closed his eyes. Jared's a pretty cool guy to hang around, but I feel really suspicious about what he is going to do next. Even though, he hasn't done anything that was too awkward, I can't be too sure to hang out with him again.

"So Niall." He spoke up breaking the silence. I startled at his words. "Yeah?" I asked.

"Niall, it's saturday tomorrow. Can we hang out?" He asked me. Whoop, there it is. Hang out with Jared?