Never Let Go (Ziall) *Undergoing EXTREME Editing

Chapter Nine: New Kid

NIALL POV

8/30/13

Wow, it's been two months since I've written. Sorry diary, but good news, I have so much to tell you. Ever since I got back from the trip to Orlando, I've taken many pictures for you, I would never forget about you.

Another thing that happened was when I was partnered up with a boy named Zayn, I think I've mentioned him before, but anyways, we became really close. Every morning over there, I would be cuddling with him, or having really nice conversations.

Anyways, by the end of the trip,we went out for a date, and he confessed his love for me. We went swimming in the pool on the night before I came back to Chicago. We kissed, it was such a magical moment; I don't ever think I'll forget it, because it was just... amazing.

Well then, after we came back, I didn't talk to him for a week or two. I was scared. Scared that I was falling in love with him. I am completely aware of my conditions, and I could never love him.

I just went from being very close to distant. It hurt me just as much to have to let him go, because I didn't  want to be away from him. Zayn is such a great guy, but deep down inside, I knew that I couldn't possibly be capable of this kind of love, because in the end I would hurt him.

So, just after that week, I rethought about everything, talked with Jen and Jordon, and came to an answer.

I realized that I truly did love Zayn, it would be unfair for him, when he told me he loved me, so I talked with him, and told him everything about myself.

We became boyfriends.

Sometimes, I think I made the wrong decision of being with him. What will he have left in two years. I don't want to break his heart.

Well, that was that.

In the last month we were together, we had a great time, we went to the beach, and the park. We even made up for the movie that Jordon wanted to see, so we all went together.

Life is going great right now, so you don't have to worry about me.

I spent nearly every single minute with Zayn, and I've come to believe that I do love him and I would never want to let go.

Well, how was that Diary? Did you think I wouldn't have kept you up to date?

Anyways, I decided that I would write, because tomorrow is when I'm moving out and into college, and I hope that it's going to be a great year. It's awesome that Zayn, Jen, and Jordon are all going to be in the same college as me. I wonder what new people we'll meet there.

Whoever or whatever thrown into my life, I'm sure that I'm going to make the best out of my college life experience.

Hey, it's getting late now, I'll keep you informed later, but for now, I still have to pack, haha. I'm still a procrastinator.

I'll write soon. :] x

-Niall

ZAYN POV

I am excited for tomorrow! We're all going to college, and living in dorms. I've requested to be roomed with Niall, I hope that they would put us together. I just love being around him, and everything about him. Gosh, he is all that's been in my mind since last month.

I decided that this time, I would pack earlier, so that in the morning, I could just get going, and tonight, I wouldn't have to work so hard.

It feels so great that now, I'll finally be on my own, but I'll miss my parents and sisters.