The subsiding strength of a Swap Sans

Chapter 1: The Same

He woke up, stared at wall, brushed his teeth, cried in the shower. The same as every day, everyday is the same and it always would be.

"Ugh..." Swap couldn't help but sigh as he walked down the stairs to make his brother breakfast just for him to leave it in the fridge to go to Muffit's as he always did. 

The brothers' house was untidy in places where they were in turn cluttered with sticky notes from the siblings, one asking the other to pick up their stuff while the other avoiding it as much as possible.

Swap couldn't help but roll his eyes at Papyrus's latest excuse while he debated just cleaning up himself but... he didn't have time for that right now. He wrote 'please just pick it up' in a sad scrawl and stuck it on top of Papyrus's last note. 

He headed to the kitchen where he realized the amount of leftover's his brother hadn't eaten had piled up.  At this point he didn't know why he even continued trying.

He grabbed some of the leftovers and heated them up before leaving them on the counter with a note as if he'd just made them. It didn't matter anyway. 

Ink and Dream would probably need him today so instead of eating he just looked at the wall for a few minutes, preparing himself for his day, and headed out the door.

***

Swap walks in though his portal to see Ink and Dream sitting on the couch quite a bit closer than friendly, he couldn't help but smile fondly.

"Oh, Swap! You're here early!" Dream said, turning suddenly with a smile that Swap recognized as Dream's 'doing something I shouldn't be smile.'

"Yeah, slipped out a little earlier, hope you don't mind." Swap said with a shrug, it was pretty nice being around his friends, it made it easier to relax.

"Did something happen? I sense some negativity from you." Dream said, a concerned smile set upon his face. Dream was always so attentive and kind, it was wonderful honestly.

"No, just another reset that's got me down, I'll be fine." Swap said but his smile wasn't quite up to par with how it usually was.

"If you say so." Dream said as he grabbed Ink's hand and pulled him up, most likely to do some sort of battle training.

Swap gave Dream a look at the blatant hand holding and he blushed slightly, dropping Ink's hand, who wasn't even really paying attention.

"Come on Swap!" Ink cheerfully called and Swap smiled and nodded.

"Right!" He said, running to catch up.

***

"HAHAHA! I landed some real good hits in there, don't you think?" Ink said and Swap realized that he was bleeding on his side, but luckily it wasn't visible quite yet.

"Yeah, looked kind of painful though." Dream said, wincing slightly and glancing at Swap with a worried look.

"Yeaahhh- oh oops-" Swap said, He managed to open the wonder more with all his fussing with it, oh well, he'd deal with that later.

"Swap? Are you alright?" Dream asked and Swap just shrugged.

"Yeah, a little hurt but it's okay." He responded and Dream gave him a small little glance before turning to Ink.

Swap stretched slightly before following behind, hoping to get a cute picture of the two doing something fruity.

Swap found himself focusing badly, he briefly wondering if Ink had actually hurt him worse than he'd thought. The woods that surrounded their base in a seemingly random surface AU suddenly seemed to blur and it barely took any time to get back to Ink and Dream's home. 

Or well, Ink mostly just stayed there, the doodlesphere was real home.

Swap found himself swaying slightly where he stood, they had walked in and... Ink was talking to him? Dream had a worried look on his face...

"SWAP!" Ink yelled as he swayed, Dream rushed to put a grounding hand on Swap's shoulder, noticing a red patch on his clothing.

"Holy Jesus- Swap what happened?!" Dream said, guiding him to the couch and sitting him down.

"Huh?" He said, before remembering the  pulsing pain in his side. "Oh- I didn't realize that cut me that deep."

"What-?" Ink said, realizing that his side was probably the result of whatever he'd done.

"A bone hit me pretty good, it'll be fine though." Swap said, waving his hands around as if in protest of any accusations that'll come his way.

"Oh, uh, sorry Swap... I guess I just don't know my own strength sometimes!" Ink said, rubbing the back of his head in a defeated, worried way.

"It's fine! Really!" Swap said, patting Ink's arm and smiling. His smile felt forced though and now that he'd been pulled out of that state of disassociation and his side was really starting to hurt.

"I'm gonna... go home and heal myself, I don't wanna bleed on your couch." Swap said, a self-deprecative tone crushing his facade of happiness.

"No, no, let me heal you." Dream said and Swap shook his head, smiling was beginning to be a struggle and he didn't want them to see him like this. It was his own fault anyway.

"It's okay Dream, you guys call me if you need me okay?" Swap said and left the pair standing alone with a look of worry and a look of guilt standing freely on their faces.

...

He flopped onto his bed, not even bothering to take off his bloody shirt.

He didn't really feel like healing himself... he knows he should, there was a risk of really hurting himself if he didn't... even bleeding out.

But.

What if he did bleed out? He'd just worried his two best friends for no reason, he really was encroaching on their space as well...

He's really just burdening them, he'd dead weight right? Not... he isn't worth keeping around is he?

"Jesus, that took a dark turn." Swap couldn't help but laugh to himself, he wasn't going down that easily.

He sluggishly pulled himself off of his bed, wincing at the spot of blood left behind. Swap slowly pulled off his shirt, wincing at the pain. When he took a look he frowned, it was a slash mark that was lazily dripping blood.

He was able to heal it mostly but he was tired, he hadn't even done anything today but training and healing took a lot out of him...

He passed out on top of the covers.

Notes: 

Hi- This was shitty, but I also had no chapter plan.

this was also a lot inspired by BruhItsUni so check them out!

So uh, bye?

(Btw voting on a chapter in the top right corner helps a lot-)

Edited 11/29/24!!! 

Added more words and changed it so it's past tense and 3rd person