Diary of a Fat Girl

9.

Dear diary

My encounter with Caleb today was absolutely terrifying. My heart felt as if it would beat right out of my chest, ready to be squished by the devil himself.

I was walking towards my locker, as usual, when suddenly, I'm yanked into a nearby classroom. I clumsily trip over my own two feet and fall to the floor. The door is slammed shut behind me and I turn to see that one of Caleb's friends, Jack, had closed it. I turn back to see Caleb surrounded by at least 3 other people that I recognise to be his 'gang'. They are well-known to be the top bullies at our school. I always stay clear of them so we haven't had any incidences. 

I hastily get up from the floor and turn to run out of the door but unfortunately, Jack's blocking it. Everyone surrounds me, as if I was prey, and I start to feel claustrophobic. Caleb takes small, deliberate steps towards me before he's standing a step away from me. His hand moves to my face and on instinct, I flinch away, but instead of hurting me, he grabs a lock of my hair and twirls it around his finger. Once it's completely wrapped around his finger, he roughly yanks my hair and I stumble forward, leaving hardly any space between us. His minty breath hits my face and mine stops as I wait in anticipation, like everyone around us.

Caleb's face is completely blank, void of any emotion. His eyes can me and he lets out a disgusted snort. The sound pierces my ears and I flinch. Caleb starts to circle around me. I stand stiff like a statue and don't let my eyes follow him. Out of nowhere, I feel my feet being knocked out from underneath me and I fall to the floor, my chin making contact with the hard tiles. I clutch my chin as the pain becomes excruciating. I can feel the sting of unshed tears but I keep them at bay.

I take a deep breath before I try to get up, but a sharp kick to my stomach brings me back to the floor again. I curl up into a ball and try not to think about the bruise that is starting to form. The tears are starting to fall freely now and, although my vision is slightly blurry, I can make out a figure making its way towards me. I roll over to protect my sore stomach but that doesn't stop the person from kicking me in the back, causing my back to arch painfully. I let out a whimper and I distinctly hear Caleb let out a small laugh. My body feels unbelievably agonizing and I just wish that the floor would swallow me up. I just want to die.

My body is sore but I still try to sit up. I brush the tears from my eyes and wipe my nose with the sleeve of my shirt.

Slowly the gang start to surround me and I cower back into a ball.

Caleb spits at my feet and says, "You're a worthless shit and no one's going to save you so you better keep your mouth shut about this or you will be sorry."

After one last kick to my hip, they all leave. As soon as I hear the door being slammed closed, I break down. Completely. My whole body aches and I feel emotionally drained.

I just want to die. Maybe then all my pain will go away.

-Anna