Jared pov
'Touch me, come on touch me baby' Molly's voice was all over my head the time when Allysa wanted me to touch her.
It's not like I don't find her beautiful enough, she is the prettiest thing in this world. When she dropped her robe, I almost jump on her. But the thing is this freaking voice that is inside me.
Fucking Molly.
"Are you evan listening?" Allysa shouted "okay, I'm out of here" she said turning around
"I killed someone" I blurted
"Yes and I will kill you if...what?" She finally registered what I said "what did you say?" She turned to me
"Molly is her name" I continue
"When? Who is Molly?" She asked now her face was soft as if she wasn't angry few seconds ago
I take her hand and sit with her on the bed.
"Before I say anything, I want to tell you that I love you so much. I have never loved a woman as much as I love you right now. So, don't ever think that I don't find you attractive, I do but there are some things that I can't control" I sighed before saying "I can't touch a woman or being touched without feeling nauseous"
"And why is that? Didn't you sleep with alot of women? How did you do it?" She asked
"I don't touch them nor allow them to touch me. We just went straight into it" I said not meeting her eye. This is so weird, talking about how you had sex with other women with the one you love.
"Why? It's that Molly's fault isn't it?" She asked and I nod
"She was my step mom" I started then proceed to tell her the whole story. Same as I told my friends. I didn't left any detail behind
At first, I thought that it would be tough to talk about it. But now, I feel relieved to let it out.
When I finished, Allysa was a mess. She was crying like I have triggered something in her.
"It was not your fault baby. She deserved it" she cried then reach for my cheeks and wipe my tears "Gosh baby, how traumatised you must have been" she cried some more.
"I was, but I'm getting better. Now that I have you and my friends. I feel like there is nothing I can't conquer" I said sincerely. She opened her arms and I move to hug her.
We stayed in a comfortable silence as she caress my hair softly trying to calm me down.
"So, you wanna talk about you?" I asked and she let me go quickly
"What about me" she asked looking everywhere but me
"About the thing that is troubling you"
"Nothing is troubling me, I'm fine" she smiled awkwardly
"Baby, look at me" I touch her chin and she looked at me "Jordan visited me before he left, and he said that you had a rough childhood so he warned me to treat you better. But how can I if I don't even know what you went through?"
"Jordan is just overprotective" she said
"And what about Ryan? He said you cried the whole session"
"Urgh! I should have known better than to choose him as my therapist" she mumbled
"You don't have to tell me anything if you don't feel like it. I will wait for the day when you will open up" I said patting her shoulder then I stood up
Frankly, I was dissapointed that she didn't trust me enough even when I told her my darkest secret.
"Where are you going?" She asked
"Shower. If we are going to do it, I should be clean too" I said then dissappear in the bathroom.
I showered quickly then got out. Allysa was still seating in the same position that I left her. Her face turned to look at me but I didn't look back
"You're mad" she said
"I'm not"
"Yes, you are. I know you"
"Baby, mad is the last thing that I am right now. But I'm just dissapointed" I closed my eyes to refrain myself from saying anything that will dissapoint her "baby, I know how much this is hard for you, It was hard for me too. But denying that you don't have a problem isn't gonna solve anything. You need time, I will give it to you but atleast accept it so you can get help"
She took a deep breath before saying "my story is the same as yours. The only difference is that they were two and still walking free out there" She said looking down as I move back to sit on the bed
"When I was young my parents were fighting a lot. My father was accusing my mother of cheating and use of drugs. I didn't pay much attention to it but when I was twelve, my father suddenly died. It was a mysterious death, but no one cared. Few days later, came a man and his sixteen year old son. My mom introduced then as Broody, my step father and Ezekiel, my step brother. At first we were living just fine that's until Ezekiel started to touch me. I was only twelve, not knowing what he was doing. He would always comes to my bedroom to bond with me and then start massaging my private parts, saying that it was part of showing love and it felt good. Things went slowly until he finally broke my virginity. It was painful but he told me that is how people show love to the one they love. We continued to have sex almost everyday until one day his dad caught us. Instead of beating us or telling mom, he decided to join the party and that's how my life turned to hell. We had lot's of threesomes, and Broody was a sadist. He was feeling pleasure by seeing me in pain. So, I would receive alot of spanking, waxing, and degradation. But that was not the worst" she paused wiping her tears.
I wanted to hug her so much but Ryan told me that when she finally opens up. I should just listen
"When I turned 15, I got pregnant. I didn't know who was the father since they were both using me. So I went to Broody and tell him. He didn't want me to have the baby, so, he took me to a shady clinic for abortion. I got sick for days but I pulled it through. And the game continued until I reach 17, I got pregnant again. This time, I didn't tell them. I was scared of what they will do. But secret wasn't so secret when I was four months pregnant. My mom found out, she asked who the father was and I couldn't tell her so she threw me out of the house. I lived in the streets until Jordan found me and took me in. As if it wasn't enough for what they did to me, those two bastards found me. And they beat me to a pulp until my child died" she broke down
"He was growing just fine. I didn't need them, Jordan was going to be his father. But those two said that they didn't want to have a child with me, so they killed him" she was now crying hard "I almost died at that, I stayed in a hospital for months fighting for my life while they live comfortably in my home. Mom didn't bother to look for me not even once" she was now unable to speak
I pull her to my chest and pat her back "that's enough baby. Don't say anything else"
"You know, if I had to choose between them and that baby. I would give them up and keep my baby. Even though he came from those sinisters, I still loved him"
"I'm sorry sweetheart. It's all over now" I kept on rubbing her back while she cries
Minutes pass and now we were in a comfortable silence. Allysa has stopped crying but still laying her head on my chest.
"So, what now? Are we going to be strong for each other?" I asked
"Yes, that's the plan" she replied then move away from my chest "and that's why today, you're going to face all your fears" she smirked
Okay, here we go. I thought she forgot about it. I sighed nervously
Tbc
Next chapter is the bang bang🔞
Now that everything has been said. Let our couple enjoy their vacation 😛
A little something for the weekend. Have a safe election my Nigerian friends💚💚
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