Ryeji Imagines

idtwcbf (friends)

Completely based off the latest Boywithuke song "idtwcbf (friends)" -I don't think we can be friends- flashbacks will be in italic
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Yeji's POV

I lied on my bed, staring at the ceiling as many thoughts raced through my mind. Half of my heart wants what we had again.

I stared into Ryujin's eyes, smiling from ear to ear. She smiled back the same way and gently squeezed my hand, brushing her thumb along my knuckles. My heart raced in my chest, feeling the need to kiss her. But I couldn't just yet, I have to ask her to be my girlfriend first.

Tears swam in my eyes and I closed them for a few seconds. It was that bad that I was falling apart, thinking "what could've been?".

I did talk with her about us being more than just friends but she seemed so distant after that conversation. I had mixed feelings about her, she seemed to be really into me but then again not.

"Yeji, I'm sure that you'd be a great person to be in a relationship with, but I need a little time to think. I really want to be friends for now."

I basically confessed to her and she subtly rejected me. I scoffed slightly. "Don't make it harder than it has to be. Please, I don't think we can be friends."

Ryujin got up with a hurt look on her face and scratched the back of her neck a little.

I just want to stop, I've had enough and I'm out of luck and out of love at this point. I don't want to give a fuck about my feels. My eyes shut, dozing off slowly into a sleep. It's awful being this emotionally uninvested after such a small things, but I'll just rest and wait for the day to come.

Next morning

I stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom, lazily brushing my teeth and staring into my reflection while zoning out. I try my hardest not to run away from everything I've done.

But I'm still looking back at all those things, imagining that Ryujin confessed back to me and that we dated, happily sleeping and waking up in each others arms, ignoring facts.

I just feel like I see two moons but walk six paths. Everything seems so out of place without her. Everything became an even bigger mess inside my head. "I'm going mad for you, Ryuddaeng."

I rinsed my mouth and wiped my lips with a towel, sighing before walking out of the bathroom, going right back to bed, where I stayed for 4 days in a row.

Ryujin's POV

I laughed softly, sipping on my beer. Some guy asked me out on a date and I agreed, wanting to escape reality for at least 2 hours. I wasn't interested in him whatsoever but he offered free drinks and those would do me good.

Half of my heart wants what we had again. Yeji and I had the most amazing friendship that slowly built into a romantic relationship but I wasn't ready yet. I had some things to cope with first before I had the chance to bring her down this dark hole with me.

The past 5 days I only cried in my bed, falling apart, thinking "what could've been?". My mind only raced back to the conversation we had last week. I haven't talked to her since.

"Yeji, I'm sure that you'd be a great person to be in a relationship with, but I need a little time to think. I really want to be friends for now." I smiled apologetically and sighed softly, seeing Yeji look down as she scoffed.

"Don't make it harder than it has to be. Please, I don't think we can be friends."

I got up with a hurt look on my face and scratched the back of my neck a little, feeling my heart sink in my chest.