The Moon From The Stars

Leaving or not?

2 days passed and it was time to leave. You helped pack all of the goods into the aircraft. It was done slowly. No one wanted to go. No one wanted to leave the Sully's. Norm, Max and Marcus were kind of like the uncles of the sully kids in a way.

You spend a lot of your time deciding whether or not you would stay. But you couldnt choose.

Marcus was like you family. The clan loved you. You only lived there for a little over a month but it did feel like home. Honestly.

But feeling safe, knowing you wouldn't wake up with the constant fear of being hunted every time you left your bed. The fear of being captured and tortured. Captured and killed.

And being with the Sully's. Kiri was like your best friend. You spent quite a bit of time with her while you were at the reef. Talking and actually laughing too. Smiling.

In the past month you had turned into a complete different person. Like you said earliereing with the Na'vi did make you soft.

It was like now that you were living in their environment, you didn't seem as tough. You weren't the one who was the life support. They were.

Yes you had had quite a few life or death experiences, but they didn't seem like it made you tough, only weaker.

Or maybe it was the connection between you and Neteyam that made you seem less tough and strong. The walls you had up had started to crumble. Those walls was what was making you tough. They gave you your angry, rage filled personality.

Neteyam was the reason you seemed the way you did. And it would hurt to leave him, despite the angry kind of feeling you felt towards him now. Both mentally and physically.

Your time with him before the decision was made was nice. You would only ever hang out with everyone else around, but you were never sat apart.

But you couldn't just stay for a boy. You had to stay for more. For something. Not just someone.

So you spent the few days you had looking for it. Both with your eyes and in your head.

You came to this conclusion:
You were happy at the reef because of the Sully's.
You were happy at the reef because you felt safe and like you weren't going to to be killed every step you took.
You were happy at the reef because it was a beautiful place and a good change in scenery. You were getting bored back at camp. And you were always looking for something knew. And this was something very new.
You could always ride back to the forest and see everyone again.

but

What about Marcus. Not waking up to his loud laugh every morning would be difficult to live without.
Not hearing his stupid jokes would be difficult to live without.
Not being able to talk to him in person would be difficult to live without.

Not having him there.

And the clan. You would miss them like crazy. You would miss the other science guys. You would miss the forest.

You would miss your new home.

And surely the scared feeling you got wasn't that bad. You had been able to handle it fine before so how come you wouldn't be able to now?

Yes, this was the safest you had felt in over a month but it didn't mean that that fear would be worse now that you knew what peace felt like.

It was almost as though this was the first time you felt peace since you were living on earth with your family. which honestly felt like decades ago.

It was hard to choose what to do. How the rest of your life would plan out. Based on this one choice you made.

You had made your choice but didn't tell anyone till the next day. So the teens had thrown a little going away party just in case. More like a lay around while you all chatted and looked to the stars.