To All The Girls I've Loved Before (Newjeans x Fem!Reader)

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Y/n's pov:

I was talking with my friends until a message popped up on my phone.

Hanni Pham

Do you find me annoying or something?

Y/n

No? Why

Hanni Pham

Uh you've been ignoring me and since... Yk it's been weird and you haven't been responding to texts. If you want to avoid me, just tell me. I'm sorry.

Y/n

Hanni mfucking Pham, come to my locker right now.

I was standing next to my locker, wondering like a stupid person, If she'd even show up.

"I- I'm here." She said as she wiped a sweat drop of her forehead. Okay, I spoke way too early.

"How much did you run to get here? It looks like you were at your house." I commented.

"Are you spying on me?" She asked with an eyebrow raised.

"What? No!" I replied and got some flashbacks I shouldn't have gotten.

I still remember going under her house singing "Traitor" by Olivia Rodrigo with Yeojin when we drank our heads off.

"Come on Y/n!Scweam!" Yeojin loudly spoke and we smashed our soju bottles together before singing.

"YOU BETRAYED MEEEE AND I KNOW THAT YOU'LL NEVAR FEEL SOOWY" I sang. I'm pretty sure I got some words wrong.

The embarrassment.

"Alright, I'm not gonna stand here and act like nothing is happening. I'm sorry for the kiss. I'll get over you. I promise. These feelings, they're uhh temporary! I swear. Just please don't hate me-" she started the nonsense...

"Did it ever cross your mind that maybe, just saying, maybe, I don't want these feelings to be temporary?" I asked frustrated.

What am I even trying to say. I'm doomed. Fucking Chaerin and her hands. I'm cutting them off.

"And like I don't like you but I like you and-... What?" She breathed. Finally. I thought she was going blue for a moment.

"Okay so... Before going to that field trip, if you're going I mean. We should have a talk. Tommorow, my house. 5 p.m. " I stated.

I can't keep it like this. I need to gather them all and have a serious talk.

How come from bitchless I pulled 4 girls.

And then there's Haerin...

She hasn't said anything about the confession letter but I guess I need her there.

"What? Y/n! You're saying such thing and leaving me here now?" Hanni angrily tapped her foot down.

"Come on Hanni, please, can you behave for once? We're getting attention." I whispered to her after noticing some pairs of eyes looking here.

Among them... Hyein, who was with her friends.

She suddenly seemed way too invested in this conversation, Hanni, this little-

"I don't care if we draw attention! At this point it's so frustrating! I can't keep it up any longer! You keep giving me mixed signals when it's clear that I like you. No actually fuck that. I love you! And you just say that you don't want my feelings to go away but still push me away?" She half yelled.

I didn't know how to react. I haven't seen this side of Hanni in a long time. Since we stopped talking actually. Here we go again...

She was looking at me with pleading eyes, begging me to say anything. Anything for her not to cry at that point.

"Hanni please. Please, can you leave it for now. I told you exactly what you need to do! Okay, I get that you're your own person but come on now! Can't you just talk like a normal person?" I spoke seriously.

That's when I saw a tear escaping her eye. "You're right. Sorry." And she just left.

I stayed there, standing with my bag on my shoulder and watching her figure fading as her friends gave me death glares.

Who's fault is even this one?

I suddenly felt my head thumping. My legs were getting weaker and weaker.

"I- I got you!" A voice behind me said and then I suddenly passed out.

"Water! Can someone bring some water!" The voice from behind me said and suddenly the air felt more suffocating.

What was happening around me...

"Open the circle! She needs air not gossips!" Another voice was heard.

Familiar..

"Y/n! Oh my gosh. I'm getting the nurse!" A pair of legs just started running next to my ear or am I trippin?

"Y/n..."

"Her legs, her legs should be up. Her blood pressure is lower than the normal."

My eyes started opening and many eyes were upon my face.

My head was still spinning.

"Y/n... Don't make sudden moves, Mo! Bring the water!"

Danielle is here? Wasn't she absent today?

"Y/n... Are you alright? Can you see properly or is your head spinning?" The nurse asked.

"Uh a mix of both?" I replied lowly as a bottle of water opened in front of me.

"Here, drink a bit." A familiar voice said and I looked up for a moment, just to see who it was.

Haerin... She got here too...

"Thank you Rin." I replied with a low voice.

"I brought her some salt from the canteen, salt is supposed to make her feel better." Another one appeared. That was definitely Minji, I'd recognize her voice among everyone.

How many people are here?

"Can we see Y/n? Or does she need air?" Jungwon...

"It's alright. I'm not dead. I'll survive. Thank you for everything here." I spoke and bowed to the nurse as the girls crowded around me stepped aside.

"Please text me when you get home later, let's hang out another time." Minji whispered and briefly kissed my cheek while the other were staring at her.

I almost forgot I was supposed to hang out with Minji today after school. Shame.

"Y/n, do you need anything else?" Hyein was upon me this time.

"No, I'm alright but tell me something. Who caught me?" I need to thank this person.

"Uhh I guess it's not obvious. It was me." She replied with a shy smile.

"Thank you Hyein." I genuinely replied.

Haerin was about to talk but all of them were requested to leave me alone for a while.

I layed on the medical bed and closed my eyes for a while.

The thing my head is still spinning is so irritating...

Guess I'll be fine in a while.

author: hello, how are y'all doing?