Thanks For Protecting Me . . .

Chapter Three

Umeji's POV

After me, Shin, and my mom ate our dinner my mom took us out for se Boba. I'm not all that into Boba but I guess it's nice. While in the car I can't help but look at Shins face. The way the stars match with him perfectly, he's like the moon in a way. He was so pretty siting in the car. Shin brought out something in me that I had never felt in such a long time. It was.... nice.

"So kids what type of Boba do you like?" My mom asked us I said strawberry as always and Shin requested a chocolate one. After we got our drinks we headed back home. It was 5:50 now so about 40 minutes untill Shin was going to get picked up. I don't want him to leave, he's so nice, and cute. I chuckle to myself knowing he will probably never feel the same. Once we git home me and him went to my bedroom.

"Hey Umeji? What are those?" Shin said, pointing and my wrists. I had completely forgotten about those.

"Oh there just cat scratches!..." I said hopping I sounded convincing enough.  I don't want him to know or worry about what I keep on doing, it like I have an addiction to it or something. He looked at me confused.

"Those don't look like cat scratches... their perfectly lined up in a row Umeji." He stated, he was right they are a bit to symmetrical to each other but I can still carry out this excuse can I? I got diagnosed with OCD when I was young, my type of OCD made it so everything had to be lined up perfectly. Everything had to be organized and neat. So of course it would show in my cuts! UGH. I brushed it off and told him not to worry, of course he was going to worry what was I thinking? Well, we still talked even though Shin wanted to know more about the perfectly lined "cat scratches." Then all of a sudden Shins phone went off.

"Hey Umeji what's the address?"

"Oh its **** **** ****"

"Ok thanks my mom will pick me up in about ten minutes." Shin said, NO I don't want him to leave. He makes me feel special. Oh well we continued to take about Shins club and the activities that they do. "I'm glad he has something he's passionate about" I thought. Then we heard a door bell ring, on the way down my and Shin threw away the empty plastic cups that held the Boba. We opened the door.

"Hello! I'm glad you've made more friends Shin I was so worried about you being alone!" She hugged him. We said out goodbyes then she left.

"Come on Umeji I see the way you look at him. You totally have a crush on them!" My mom said as she closed the door.

"HUSH MOM THEY MIGHT HEAR YOU"  I whispered-screamed. "And to answer your comment, no I don't.

"Oh come on your In denial. You know denial is just a river in Egypt!" She said, nudging me. I guess their was no point fighting about it.

"Fine, I do like him BUT you not allowed to tell" I emphasized the "but" when I said it.

"I KNEW IT I JIST KNEW IT" She practically jumped with joy and excitement. "I NEED TO GET YOU TWO TOGETHER ASAP!"

"MOM, HE DOESN'T LIKE ME BACK I KNOW IT!" I yelled to her

"BULLSHIT" She yelled back. Ugh oh well. I got up to brush my hair since I forgot this morning, brush my teeth, get on my pajamas, and then go to bed. I couldn't stop thinking about him.

*buzz* *buzz* *buzz*

There goes the group chat. I grabbed my phone for some free entertainment.

"Hey so who do you think Umeji was thinking about?"

"I know but I'm not allowed to tell~" (the "~" means teasing in this situation)

"Oh come on dude! I'll just have that legend Info-Chan tell me."

"Uhm theirs a problem with that.. I think you need to send her pantie shots in order to get that info..."

"EWWWW"

"I didn't think info-Chan was a perv"

"No I'm pretty sure see sells them for money to y'know... creeps"

"Oh that actually makes a lot of since but how is she getting the pantie shots?"

"I think I student at school has agreed to take them in return for some thing idk what but yea...."

"Mm ok new plan tomorrow find out who takes the pantie shots, tell them to asked info-Chan on Umejis crush and BOOM!"

"guys you seriously don't know who is her right hand person?"

"YOU KNOW?!"

"Yea her name's Ayano Aishi"

"Oh her, she's kinda strange she rarely shows any emotion... she's kinda freaking tbh"

They went on and on about info-Chan and plans to get my crushes name and face. After I had my free entertainment I thought to myself.  

"Why am I like this?"

"I should just die"

"I don't deserve him"

"I should get my blade"

With out thinking I got my blade out of a box underneath my bed. I looked at the blade, it was a scalpel that I had found on the ground while walking home in middle school. Of course I washed it really good so I wouldn't get any infections. The cool silver touching my skin, it was a .... reliveing feeling. I made sure that they were even so I wouldn't freak for that fact. I smiled even though it hurt like hell.  Soon enough it was 12 pm and I was bawling. My tears mixed with the blood on the ground I don't know why I didn't stop. I was getting light headed but I didn't stop, my cuts go sloppier and sloppier as the feeling grew in strength, but I didn't give up. It was like I needed to do it even if i was going to faint, and soon enough.

*falls*

I fainted, my floor was covered in blood. It looked like a murder happened in my room. For some reason I could still hear things because.... well .....

*door opens*

"UMEJI? W-WHAT HAPPENED?" a voice said "WHO DID THIS!" they said, they sounded angry. I don't know why. I was slowly regaining  consciousness, my eyes were trying so hard to stay open. I saw familiar light pink hair over my face. She was... crying. Over what?