Thanks For Protecting Me . . .

Chapter Four

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I think Shin has a British accent. Just sayingI think Shin has a British accent. Just saying

Shin POV

I woke up and did the usual things like, brush my hair and teeth, change my clothes and run out the door. My mom has work in the early mornings. I run to Umejis place since I want to greet him  before I walk to school. 

*knock knock*

They didn't answer so I waiting on his front porch for about twenty minutes. All his friends where already there and talking to me.

"So Shin whats you opinion on Umeji?"

"Yea tell us!! We promise we wont tell him!!"

"I well I think hes a very sweet but scary guy."

"that's it?"

"well he is quite pretty..." I said. As soon as I realized what I had said I put my hand over my mouth like I had said something very bad and was in one of those drama movies. I was so shocked I didn't even think about it before saying it! I usually think it through but I didn't.

*GASP*

"MY SHIPP HAS SAILED!"

"YAYYAYYYAYYY"

"we have to get you two together!" 

"uhm well-" the door opened and out came Umeji except he had bandages all over his arms! He tried covering it but it didn't work. 

"uhm Umeji? What happened?" I asked, hoping to get a descent answer of what this was all about.

"oh its nothing it just slept pretty wildly last night and my arms got all cut up" Umeji said, clearly trying to make up an excuse. Of course I didn't take it. I mean with what I saw last night... it was pretty obvious that they weren't just "an accident". 

"Hey Umeji ... stay safe ok?" His mom said in the most gentle voice ever. 

"I will ... thanks"

"Ok! Have fun!" As we walked I told him that I wanted to know the truth and he told me he will tell me at lunch time. As soon as I saw the school entrance I bolted to my club, sat down, and began reading a book about spirts. I could not take my mind off of Umeji, he was just so . . . pretty, he was quite literally the prettiest boy I had ever seen. " What had he been doing to himself while I was away? Did he hurt himself because I pointed out the other ones?" The thought almost made me cry, I ran to the boys restroom. I was bawling at the thought of hurting him even though I didn't physically hurt him . . . I caused him to do it. Then I heard foot steps and I quickly wiped my tears. It was Umeji, he was... crying. He went into a stall, and I could hear everything.

"why... *sniff* why... I want him to know but *sniff* I don't want to trigger . . .  him *sniff*"this was followed by him crying. I want to tell him that he won't trigger me even if its triggering. I had stopped crying, I knew how it felt. The crushing pain of keeping it inside out of fear it will trigger someone, whether that be.. hurting themselves or blowing up in their face. It was a painful feeling, but it was a valid feeling. "I defiantly cause him to hurt himself... "DANG IT AM SUCH A FAILURE!" I thought to my self while running out of the restroom. I ran up to the rooftop so I could be alone.

*RING* *RING* *RING*

"That was the bell" I said while walking to class. Once I had walked in there was a new seating chart so I sat where the seating chart told me and waited. Umeji walked in and looked at the seating chart and sat right beside me! I got a huge amount of butterflies, and blushed hard. "He's siting RIGHT by me!!" I thought while bringing my hand up to my face and turned toward the window. The sky always seemed to always calm me down, the light blue hues, the clouds. Other students came and sat down to their new spot and started to do thing on their phones. The teacher walked in and grabbed her material and started to teach us about various different subjects. I hadn't noticed but I was staring at Umeji spacing off. He was staring right back at me! I got that same feeling and a familiar heat rose up to my face, I quickly turned away. Time seemed to speed up around him, I don't know why but it just did. The bell rang and I quickly got up and was waiting for Umeji. Then we walked to the same storage room we ate in a day ago.

" so ... uHm trigger warning I guess since I'm gonna tell you the truth"

"Ok! I can handle it!" I said feeling the gloomy feeling already affecting us.

"Well... I don't wanna sound dramatic but..."

"don't worry your feelings are valid!" I smiled.

"ok well... I dunno why I've just be feeling empty and so I . . . hurt myself to feel something. . . I. ."

"oh... we can work through it together ok?" I said as I grabbed his hand and rose it up in the air with a smile.

"ok.. thanks" 

"no problem it what friends do!" I say clearly trying to hide my real feelings. Then he gave me a bento! 

"Why? You didn't have to!"

"oh well I just made extra food so yea" After that we ate in comfortable silence. The bell rang and we went to class together. The thing that was different was that he was holding my hand! It was so strange but it felt so perfect. The feeling of so much happiness and joy flooded my brain. His hands were surprisingly soft, it kinda felt like a pillow. No what am I thinking? Stop it! I scolded myself. When was walked into the class the teacher looked at me and Umeji with a "my ship has sailed look" we were being ship with by a teacher, and Umejis friends! We sat in our seats and let go and started waiting for the class to start. The class was boring as usual. As soon class was done Umeji had the biggest smile on his face. It was lie.... the sun. I went to do my part of cleaning the school and Umeji went to talk with his friends. After I was done I went to do my club activity! It was fun but it would have been more fun with Umeji by my side. I was almost bored without him around. "Am I addicted to the feeling I get around him?" I thought to myself. "No that cant be. . ." but it kept persisting that I was addicted.  I got done with the activity then I went to go home, to my surprise Umeji was waiting for me.

"Hey Shin! I was wondering if we could go to your house this time. I already contacted my mom and she said yes." Umeji said, he smiled that smile that was like that sun, so bright and beautiful. I blush because of his smile but he didn't notice.

"Sure! Ill ask my mom and dad, just one sec!" I said, pulling my phone out of my pocket to text the question in the group chat I had on my phone. My mom and dad responded immediately

"Of course!" his mom said

"Yep! alright with me!" his dad said 

"Ok you can come!" I said not expecting to sound so happy he was coming over. "Come on, I already embarrass myself! UGH" I thought. He looked so happy to hear he could come over! " I wonder if he loves me the way I love him?" I whispered to myself. I was sure I had a crush, no that I had fallen in love with this boy. Then we walked over to my house. 

(1300 words?! HOLY CRAP)