𝐋𝐢𝐚𝐫, 𝐋𝐢𝐚𝐫 | 𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

56. liar, liar.

F I F T Y - S I X
liar, liar.

We get to some port, I haven't been exactly listening to anything.

We got shot at at some point. I was hidden away from the gunfire, so I didn't really have to move; I just checked briefly to make sure no one died. Thankfully, no one died.

Gunshots, at this point, are a big whoopty-doo.

Sarah came and sat with me for a bit. Then Cleo did. Then Pope.

Kiara didn't. Nor did JJ.

His words are stuck in my head on replay, he was so angry at me; he said every word with complete confidence, his voice didn't waver. He meant every word, it sounded like it was bubbling under the surface for a long time. It was probably all the crying that would've been annoying. The crying and the fact that I tried my best not to talk to him for weeks. I pretty much pushed them together. I'm like Cupid.

I know he wouldn't hit me. I didn't mean to look at him like that. I didn't even know I had a look like that. I was just sad and scared for what that meant.

I never cared this much when I was with Rafe, it didn't feel like the only good thing left in my life was slipping away. Because that's what this feels like, everything I have held near and dear has slowly been taken away from me, and the last thing I had I let slip through my fingers. I should've held onto him harder, I shouldn't have asked him if he was cheating on me. He is allowed to spend time with his best friend, even if that means he doesn't spend time with me. He has no obligation to spend time with me, if he doesn't want to, he doesn't have to.

I haven't just lost JJ, I've lost Kiara too, someone I've been best friends with for as long as I can remember.

What am I meant to say to my Mum? Just rock up and tell her I fucked everything up, and I'm sorry I got stuck on an island.

I wonder if my dad even knows I'm gone. Or if he cares.

What is JJ going to do when we get back? His life is pretty messed up as well. He probably doesn't have anywhere to go.

What is Sarah going to do? Her family exploded in front of her. Kind of like that boat Ward was on.

Kie's parents are probably ready to go nuclear. They were talking about sending her to boarding school before everything happened.

Pope's parents are probably just terrified. Likely similarly to my Mum.

What is Cleo going to do? I hope she doesn't leave. She is amazing, she always gets me my favourite berries and shows me waterfalls she found. And she laughed at my stupid jokes.

Life is never going to go back to the days it was before it all went tits up, but I wish more than anything it would.

I'd say stuff I should've said earlier.

I want a redo button. Even if it could just take me back a few hours ago.

Moving for the first time in hours, I pull myself to stand up, making sure I don't buckle under the weight of my body, my numb feet not helping the situation. I need to go stretch my legs, get off this damn boat, just for a little bit.

Walking through the boat, I avoid everyone. Getting out into the fresh air feels amazing, I look around at the dark port. Not fancying getting kidnapped again, because the third time's the charm that will probably kill me, I won't go too far out of sight.

I can smell the salty sea air, and the gentle breeze against me makes the hairs on my arms stand on end. My boots are dried out finally, and I can hear the tiny waves washing against the sea wall.