Oxygen

Chapter 3

I sit down next to my dad and brothers graves and put the roses next to the pile of flowers that are always there getting bigger everyday.

I sigh " it's been a while, yeah I know don't make excuses Scarlette I know. I'm sorry. " I say

" well my days been productive so far, or maybe not but hey waking ups a start." I laugh god I wish I could hear my brothers laugh

I smile " anyway I went to this insane party last night, it was crazy. Can you believe it? I went crazy? Me?! It was an amazing experience. I'm kind of getting tired though of my friends my boring life I mean I feel like I just need time to explore... travel. Find myself you know. I mean I can but I don't-

I'm interrupted by shattering glass i hear from behind me. Or was it beside me I don't know. I start shaking and turn around gasping but I'm no longer in the cemetery I'm in a car, my car and there's yelling. A lot of yelling. Glass shatters all around me. Going everywhere

I squeeze my eyes shut tightly and reopen them and I see a little boy in the distance crying because he's dropped a vase of flowers

I turn around. I put my hand over my wrist and check my pulse. Deep breaths deep breaths.

Once I get my pulse back to normal I kiss my dad and brothers graves, tell them I love them and start heading out.

I walk down the street and then the next and turn on the next.

Until I'm home. I walk to my car and hop in. I start the car and slowly back out.

I park into my usual parking space and get out walking toward the coffee shop. I walk in hearing the usual bell I hear on repeat all throughout the day.

Walking in I grab an apron and put my hair up heading towards the counter. I fix a few things getting everything set up for myself. And smile satisfied when everything looks perfect.

I hear the bell ring which doesn't really phase me since I hear it constantly. I slowly walk over to the cash register and press a few buttons while saying what I usually do. " Hello and welcome to Aunt Milles what would you like today? Our specials today are" I say looking up from the cashier. My heart stops. My breathing stops. It's her the women who left me. Who left us. The women who didn't even come to her own sons funeral. I stare blankly at the woman. It's my mom. Well she was my mom, but she's dead to me now. I can't even function. I can't even think. I clear my throat finishing " the um pumpkin spice and the uhm new birthday c-cake flavor of uh our cake pops." I smile looking back down.

" I'll just get one regular black coffee that'll be all." She says

" um okay ma'am that'll be uhm" I say rubbing my forehead " sorry 2.19."

" are you alright sweety, you look a little lightheaded" she said holding her hand out onto my arm.

" I-I'm f-fine ma'am. That'll be 2.19." I snap moving my arm away from her hand

She looks a little taken back at first but I just want her to leave. I don't even think she knows who I am. I need her gone. Right now I can't do this. I need this nightmare to be over.

She hands me 2.25 and I hand her back a nickel and a penny and she gives me one last weird look before walking out.

As I watch her gracefully walk out I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.

I look down and squeeze my eyes tightly . " Ah what's happening to me?" I cry rubbing my forehead. Ow it hurts. Why does everything hurt ?

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