➥𝗦𝗟𝗨𝗧 𝗧.𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗕𝗔

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I watched his sleep induced state. He looked peaceful and pretty, but overall, he was mesmerizing. He had no problem gathering my attention, but that's how he was with everyone. People always admired him, though his abusive side was prominent. I still wondered how he did it, and maybe I would even ask.

I ran my fingers through his hair as a way to make time go by faster. He had been knocked out for 30 minutes, but I knew he would wake up soon. I still wondered how my punch managed to deal this much damage. I saw his eyes slowly blink open, so I removed my fingers from his hair.

He finally opened them, adjusting to the light and focusing his vision on me. He sat in an upright position, rubbing his temples. "Your head hurts?" I asked, looking over at the counter. I grabbed the two tablets and handed them to him along with a cup of water. He put the tablets in his mouth and then drank the water, setting the cup back on the counter.

"Am I going to get a beating?" I had already prepared for it, I was just waiting now. "Why did you hit me?" He asked instead. I stared out of the window. "Answer is logical, don't you think?"

I replied, a bit tired. Monitoring him got boring. Eventually, it led to me getting sleepy, but I had to stay up for him. "Don't you know that I love you? I'm doing what's right for everyone, I love my siblings." I was  irritated at his lies, but I needed to understand him. Maybe something wasn't wired correctly in his brain, or maybe he had childhood trauma. I wouldn't know unless I asked.

"Okay fine, since you believe what you're doing is right, tell me why. Tell me why you communicate using violence. Tell me why you believe that hitting us and being abusive is okay?" He could never answer. It's as if he knew he was wrong, but he wouldn't admit it.

Pulling the chair closer to the bed, I grabbed his hand and held it in mine. "I once had a friend, it was a toxic friendship, and I'm thankful I left it. She would manipulate me into thinking the things that she did were moral. She would hit me if I did something wrong, and one time she fractured my leg and said it was a joke.

I used to think that it was okay. I built a tolerance to it. But Angel made me realize that it's not alright. You don't always need to hurt someone, people have feelings too, and if you don't care then leave them alone. It hurts when you lay your hands on us, instead of making us admire you or making us stronger, it makes us afraid. You'll hit and beat us over insignificant things. We're not perfect, humans weren't meant to be.

Your siblings love you very much and they'll do anything to protect their family, Yuzuha especially. I know that you love us, but it's not the right way to express it. Everyone expresses it differently, but Taiju, you must understand that how you're doing it isn't healthy."

He looked down, guilty. He couldn't meet eye contact. "If that's true, then teach me how to love." Sighing, she approached her words carefully. "You don't need me Taiju, you aren't a fool." She stood up from the chair, approaching the door. "You can start with your siblings first, they need you the most. After all, you are their older brother."

She left, leaving him in the room by himself. He sat on the edge of the bed. Standing, he went after her. Before she could really leave, he tugged on her sleeve. "Where are you going?" He asked demandingly, but she shrugged it off. "I'm going to hang out with Angel, you should stay and rest."

"Why are you acting like this?" He turned me around, upset with how I was "acting," but I didn't see how he could feel that way. "Acting like what?" He wrapped his hand around my throat, raising me in the air.
I didn't resist, I didn't feel indifferent, I didnt feel anything. He then threw me to the ground, looking down on me. "You're pissing me off." I nodded, standing to my feet, adjusting my clothes.

"Mikey made me realize something. After I had knocked you out, he was amazed. He told me why he was amazed, and for that, he made me an official member of Toman. He said that I was strong for what I did.

He made me realize what it was actually like to be "strong."

I don't need all of this in my life. I don't want to be a member, I did all of this because I wanted to be like you, I wanted to be strong and respected by you. I figured if I was recognized, then you wouldn't abuse me."

She took a pause, awkwardly rubbing her shoulder. "I care for you, and I do love you, but you're not good for me. I can't be around a person who treats people like they're nothing." She waved a last goodbye, turningntowards the door.

He stood powerless. Witnessing her leaving out of the door, more guilt surfaced. He had grown feelings for her, and for her to leave like this, made him rethink all of the things he'd ever done in his life. He abused his siblings and made them think that it was okay, he treated others like shit, and he acted like a tyrannical being. In those moments he realized that it wasn't okay to do these things, and she was the one who made him realize that.

All of these things that he was doing, were
pushing the ones that he loved away from him. He looked to the ground, a single tear falling from his eye. He didn't want to lose her, he didn't want to lose his siblings, he didn't want to lose everything. With slow movements to the door, he saw her ready to pull off. He walked to her car, taking a long lengthy sigh before knocking onto the window. Startled, she glanced at him and quickly looked away.

"Open the door." She sat in the car ignoring his request. She was irritated with him, all she wanted was for him to leave. She made a stupid move and exited the car. Heaving a sigh, she glared and attempted a peaceful remark. "Taiju, just leave me alone."

With a frustrated breath, she tried to return  inside, but he pushed her against it. She yelled at him, but he ignored everything, resting his head ontop her shoulder. He wrapped his two muscualr arms around her torso. She struggled, nothing had worked.

"Whatever it takes, you can tie me down to a chair and beat me whenever, I don't care. Whatever it takes to get you to stay with me until we descease. I can't live without you, Y/N. I don't want you to think that I'm manipulating you, or trying to get you to feel guilt, because it's none of that. I'm speaking what I feel from within.
I don't want to keep pushing the ones that I love, away."

He mumbled into her shoulder as he held her tightly. She stopped resisting and put her hands at her sides. When he noticed her movement ceased, he pulled away. She hugged him again, but this time it was a longer duration. He hugged her back, the two not trying to cry in each other's arms.

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Taiju had been improving on being a better person. Everyone noticed the change, which Mikey had enviosed. His siblings started liking him more, and all of them started bonding on a deeper level. He still used violence from time, but he resorted to other ways to handle issues. He swore to never hit his siblings again, and he swore to never use violence for the wrong things.

Yuzuha and Hakkai both respected Y/N, considering her a very close and important person in their lives. She had helped them, helped everyone, and they felt it was a miracle that someone like her was brought into their lives.