Ashton:
"She says she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room"
It all got too much. The hate, the constant touring, being alone. You just couldn't take it anymore. You just wanted it all to be over, to feel no more. Sure you had Ash, but was he enough to make you stay? He was the only reason why you were still here. But he'd get over you, the voice inside you head told you, everyone will you're nothing special - just ask the fans. You were sitting in your room, blade in hand, wondering if anyone would truly miss you if you were to just end it all. It's what you want, so what's stopping you? That gorgeous, dimpled Aussie - that's who.
The door slams shut unexpectedly, scaring you so much that the blade slips and slices your thumb open. You curse to yourself, knowing that ash will be there any second now.
"Babe?" His heavy Aussie accent echoes around the small bathroom, sending you into a flurry - trying to clean up the mess before he finds you. His footsteps thud up the stairs and you count down the seconds before he comes knocking on the door.
5...4...3...2...1
He's gonna find you now, the voice in your head taunts. Soon enough, his smiling face is at the doorway. His smile suddenly falls as he sees you standing there, a blade in your hand and blood dripping off of you thumb. He falls to his knees in front of your sliced worst and thumb.
"Babe...?" His voice chokes out, his broken state breaking your heart even more. Here it comes, you think. The rejection, he's gonna break it off now. But his next words take you by surprise,
"We'll get through this together ok?"
Michael:
"All she wanted was to be enough"
"You worthless piece of shit! How could you do this?!" You parents continue to screech at you, naming all the awful things they could think about. You just sit there and take it, there's no point in trying to fight back. It's not like they'll remember any of this tomorrow morning, when the alcohols worn off. All you wanted was for Mikey to be right next to you, his arm wrapped around you as he whispered that none of this was true - but he was on tour, so that wasn't going to happen. This wasn't unusual for your parents to do, once it got so bad that the cops were called. At least they acknowledge your presence when they're drunk, unlike when they're sober and they just pretend your invisible. A text lights up your phone screen, showing Mikey's contact with the words
Goodnight beautiful xx
Underneath you smiled at your boyfriend, even though he was halfway around the world and extremely tired, he still thought of you - unlike your parents who ignored you even when you were right in front of them.
You just sat there, being told that you weren't good enough, that you weren't worth anything. The worst part?
You were starting to believe them.
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Hello unicorns!
So hand up who loves Madness ✋✋✋✋
QOTD: Fav Madness song/songs?
AOTD: I really love The Strays, Better Off Dead, We Like It Loud and November
Love you guys
Remember hugs not drugs
Peace out
-sky xx
