Ashton (his POV)
"I remember the makeup running down your face"
I walked silently to her. Sitting down on the grass, I pick at the little clumps - stalling. "Hey beautiful...." I trail off - not knowing how to start, this was my first time doing this. I quickly glance at the letters adorning the polished stone. It only took that one look to make me break down, sobbing until my lungs feel like they're closing up. "I miss you so fucking much beautiful, I would give anything to have you here with me - I would take 20 more years fighting about spoiled milk then this. Oh god, do you remember that time you left me over that fight about the milk?" There was no answer of course, but I kept going, "I mean it wasn't just over the milk it was over everything tumble weeding into a huge fight. Ugh, I remember that day so clearly, so very clearly. I remember you packing your clothes while your makeup was running down your pretty cheeks, I remember me grabbing your wrist and begging you to stay, I remember you melting into my arms as you yelled into my chest - something about how you loved me and never wanted to let me go but how you were sick of all the fighting. Sound about right darling?" Again, all there was, was a horrible, throat-closing, gut-wrenching silence. "But you know, now your back home, among the clouds. And I'm about 99% sure that you're chilling sigh Amy Winehouse now," I chuckled, "and you know, maybe one day I'll join you and mini Irwin up there. How is he/she? God, we didn't even get that far! You had barely started showing when you were both taken from me. Babe, I've got stuff to do down here but don't you worry - one day I'll be up there too," I get up, brushing my jeans down, "I'll be up there too." I whisper as I walk away from the love of my life.
Calum
"I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted."
You pressed a finger against your lips, trying to remember your last kiss with Calum. He had just broken up with you, no reason at all apart from 'it's not you it's me.' What a line. Although you wanted to kick him in the place the sun don't shine, you still longed for his touch, his mouth, his everything. He always tasted kind like mint whenever you guys kissed, whether it was in the morning, afternoon, or evening, his kisses always had a lingering taste of mint. Your last kiss was after his show at the forum. He had come running off stage, his signature grin on his face, and picked you up and twirled you around before putting you down and placing his lips on yours. He had then kissed both cheeks, your chin, your nose, both eyelids and finally your forehead. You could say he was happy. Then it had all come crumbling apart. You felt so empty now that he wasn't there to light up your days, you felt so cold in the mornings and at night now that he wasn't there to snuggle into your side. Sighing, you remove your hand and let it hang limply at your waist again. You sadly unlocked your phone and looked at your wallpaper - it used to be you and Calum, but now you had changed it to a boring picture of the stars. You went on twitter and saw multiple tweets from him.
@Calum5sos: that feeling you get, invincible.
@Calum5sos: This is without a doubt the best day of my life! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Did you mean nothing to him? Were you just another chick he got with? "If what we had was real how could you be fine Calum? Cuz I'm not fine at all..."
Lucas:
"When he says those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you?"
"God your so worthless! Can you do anything right? Ugh, your are just so pathetic I wish I'd never met you!!" You cried harder with every word that your current boyfriend screamed at you. He stormed off to his room, slamming the door behind him. You remain crying on the floor, crawling over to your secret chest. You see, there's this chest in your house that had a secret compartment. You opened the drawer and got your letters out, before you split, Luke wrote you multiple letters, wrote many songs and wrote gorgeous poems. What can you say? The boy had a way with words. You happened to read them when y/bf/n went off at you.
*FLASHBACK*
Luke and you were sitting at home, him with his guitar and you with your notebook. He was strumming random chords, staring into space - his fingers plucking the strings absentmindedly. "I wanna write a song for you babe. He says, still looking up at the ceiling. You glance over at him, seeing his lip ring being toyed with between his teeth. "Um, ok then babe - what's it gonna be about?" You ask him, a smile playing on your lips. He drops his gaze from the ceiling to your bright eyes, "Well, I sort of already have it written, I just wanted to see what you'd say." You laugh at him, sitting up straighter. "Well, can you play it for me?" You ask him, pulling the puppy face Calum taught you. He nods and begins strumming the guitar in a proper song format.
(PLAYS OUT OF MY LIMIT)
*FLASHBACK OVER*
Mikey:
"If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream, I'd hold you closer than I ever did before. And you'd never slip away."
"I can't do this anymore Y/N! It's just gotten to a point where this relationship is doing more bad than good! I hate that it's like this and I don't want it to end this way but..." He trails off, not sure what to say. By this point you were sobbing uncontrollably. The tears making stains on your rosy cheeks. He walked to your once shared bedroom and began packing his clothes into a suitcase. You lunge over to him and grip onto his arm like a vice, "Please, please, please don't leave me Mikey! I can't do this without you, I can't do anything without you." He looks over to you, sympathy in his eyes - but you don't want to see sympathy in his eyes, you want to see sadness in them. Sadness that he's leaving, sadness that it's finally over.
"Y/N!! Y/N WAKE UP!" You awake to Michael shaking you. You gasp and sit up, linking your arms around him and catching your breath back again. He pulls away slightly, so that your able to see his face, and wipes his thumb under your eyes along the tear streaks. "What did you dream about babe?" He asks softly. You look into his jade eyes (I was so tempted to say orbs as a joke lol) and sigh, you look away and just burry your face into his tee again. You squeeze your arms tighter around his torso, and he does the same - tightening his grip on you. "Babe?" He encourages softly, stroking your hair in a comforting manner. "I-I dreamt that you were going to leave me, a-and I couldn't stop you Mikey, I couldn't stop you!" You cry into his shirt, your voice breaking on the last sentence. He let's you melt further into his body, if that was even possible, as you feel him start to cry as well. You look up at your boyfriend, "Are you crying Mikey?" You ask, a little humour in your voice. "Of course I am! My baby's crying and in pain, she thought I was leaving her... Of course I'm crying!" He exclaims. You laugh at your amaze boyfriend and snuggle back into his chest. "Your never going to leave me, right Mikey?" You ask cautiously. He pulls you away from him abruptly and looks into your eyes. "Ok Y/N, I'm am currently crying about my girlfriend having a nightmare, of course I'm never going to leave you!" He says, very seriously - letting you know how serious you were.
"I love you Y/N. Way to much for my own good."
"I love you too Mikey."
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hi guys!
So I was like dying on the inside because of this pref. anyways sorry that it's later than I said it would be, oops. As I said previously, school has started again in Oz as in a new year. Exciting stuff. Yeah.... Anyways this is the 50th chapter which is awesome, next goal is 100.
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-sky⚓️⚓️xxx
