Broken

Seven

(MA)

Rogers had recruited me along side Barnes, Dum Dum Dugan, Jones, Morita, Montgomery Falsworth, and Jacques Dernier to attack other known Hydra bases. Tomorrow was the mission to assault a train with Zola on board, but now we rest. I couldn't though, all of these missions with two specific men I've grown fond over, it tends to get in the way. I sit myself outside looking up at the night sky. "Cant sleep either?" I look up to see Buck standing to my right. "So much on the brain, ya know." I shrug as he sits next to me... Very close next to me. "Well we almost have all of the Hydra operations sabotaged. The finish lines right there." He tells me making me smile at the thought of winning it all. "Too bad you're working anonymously to the public .. with the mask and hat..no name. The rest of the guys call you a Phantom since they haven't seen your face either."
I look at him and shrug off the concern, "Doesn't bother me much. I'm fighting like I've always wanted. Nothing better than doing the thing I went into this business for."
"Yea.. but you joined as an agent."
"Well my dad was a Major General. I don't even remember my mother, being as I was only just birthed... Only child, only wanting to be just like him.." I drift off looking back up. "Phantom sounds hot." I joke trying to change the subject. "He'd be proud." Buck says seriously. I just let out a small smile before looking back at him.
"If only Rogers wouldn't treat me differently after HE recruited me."
"I think he just doesn't want you to get hurt." Buck adds but I look at him as if I were asking if heard what just came out of his mouth. "HE recruited me." I say slowly making him laugh, I laugh back.
"I shut him down and he moves on to Peggy." I shrug. "You don't know-"
"Her pictures in his compass Buck." I chuckle. "Just don't understand, if he decided to fawn over someone else, why still hold that grudge." Buck just looks at me. "Well why did you shut him down?" He asks making me roll my eyes, "I told you I couldn't tell you.. You're too close, Soldier."  I joke making him let out a small laugh before I hear him quiet down quickly, making me look over. "Saving yourself?" He asks looking in my eyes. This flirtation between the two of us was electrifying sometimes. "Maybe." I shrug. I stand up and start to take a walk around the base, I hear Buck quickly stand up and follow. "I know you, Alicia." I just hear him say from behind me. "Oh yea? And what's that?" I ask not turning around, a grin stuck on my face. Until I'm stopped and turned around, looking James right in the eyes, him holding me, "You're in love with me. Just admit it!" He says inches away from me. "Who said I was?" I tease.
"I did! Just now... You can't even tease with a straight face about it." He laughs making me laugh. "So what then? We kiss now and ride off into the sunset until a deployment?" I joke.
"We win this, you marry me."
My smile was immediately wiped from my face. "James.."
"No.." He interrupts, "I love you. I've grown to love and adore every part of you. I know you love me.." I look away but Bucky moves his face into my view, making me look back at him. "You think you can handle this attitude Steve gives me now, just to you stealing me in his point of view?" I ask
"Like you said, he's got Peggy.. And you aren't anyones property." I smirk before looking away from Bucks begging face. "You haven't even kissed me how do you know these are the lips you want to wake up to everyday?" I say making excuses at this point. "Say yes to me and I can give you an answer." He says inching closer. "And if you don't like it?" I ask not looking away from him. "I'd just dump you..right on the spot." He jokes making me laugh.
"Will you?" He asks, our lips almost touching.. Buck had quickly became the one I can rely on with my life. So many times I've faced death and He was right there, and I had done the same. We were in our own world taking down the Nazi Hydra members. In sync. I'd kill to have that for the rest of my life with somebody.
"I think you're missing something.." I pull away an inch and point to the ground. Bucky quickly realized and dropped on a knee, "Alicia-"
"Fine! Since you asked so nicely." I say making him smile and jump up and kiss me. He felt warm and comforting. I couldn't help but sink into it.

I sort out our gear to each man, my mask had a device that deepened my voice, made by Stark who was part of the only few who knew about me being here. The mask wasn't so bad especially for these moments in the snow. I notice Dum Dum had fucked with a latch to slide down the zip line. "Give it." I say only to take it off of his hands to fix. "There, Don't touch." I order him. "You fixed one of my problems." He teases. "Problems?" I ask.
"The mask.. Take it off." He tried to make me. "Show my face?" I ask him. "Yes sir."
"Negative."
"Are you ugly?" I make eye contact with James for a moment, "Quite the opposite." I say with a smirk underneath, making James turn to the zip lines. Steve walks past me and to Bucky. "Remember when I made you ride the Cyclone at Coney Island?" He asks Steve.
"Yeah, and I threw up?" Steve remembers. "This isn't payback, is it?"
Steve looks up with a grin. "Now why would I do that?"
"We were right. Dr. Zola's on the train." Jones tells us, "Hydra dispatcher gave him permission to open up the throttle. Wherever he's going, they must need him bad."
"Let's get going, because they're moving like the devil." Falsworth tells us as I latch my T Bar to the cable between Steve and Buck.
"We only got about a 10-second window. You miss that window, we're bugs on a windshield." Steve tells us. "Mind the gap." Falsworth warns us.
"Better get moving, bugs!"

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I fix together my gear after making our plan and everyone leaving the table. "Hey." I look up to see Nat walking towards me. "You okay?" She asks sitting across from me. "I'm fine." I say with a confused look on my face. Do I look upset to her? "Really? Cause if I had seen the man I'd fought with, been tortured with, and can still look at him the way you did when he was trying to kill us.." She pauses and I look back down to my gear. "On top of your entire belief of what your life was the 70 years frozen and the one being an Agent and not being able to let it marinate 'cause of the man you've been using to patch that big ol' Barnes shaped hole in your heart.."
"That's not what I did!" I cut her off making her just look at me in shock. "Steve was sweet and protective when we worked in New York. That protectiveness quickly became.. controlling. I get that. I got hurt on that train that WE lost Barnes. I got hurt in New York 'cause I refused to use my powers then. I got hurt the 70 years I was frozen and thawed over and over for Hydra missions and didn't even know it."
Natasha was just listening to me, speechless. "I get hurt. He took care of me. Just cause that care looks a little different now, doesn't mean it was always this way and I'm suffering just cause it's the closest thing I've got to James." I say getting more and more frustrated. "But at the same time, Steve is the closest thing to Barnes." She says making me freeze.
"You're better than to let Steve own you like this." I quickly stand up. "I love you Nat. I need to think." I say plainly before walking away.

I walk into the room Steve was sleeping until morning. "What do you want?" He asks, shirtless and from sitting in his bed. Everything Nat said, seeing James, taking down SHIELD and Hydra with just one mission tomorrow, it all hit like a truck. His stupid, ugly face was just right there. He's treated me like shit but something drew me to him. If I was ending this for good I couldn't go without a last time, on my say.
I quickly walk up to him and sit on his lap, kissing him passionately. He quickly kisses back placing his hands on my hips. I didn't stop kissing but his hands guide my hips slowly back and forth. He quickly takes off my shirt before going for my neck. Goosebumps cover me and he moves slowly towards my breasts. I push him down onto the bed. I quickly take off his shorts and see his member fully at attention. I touch it for a moment making his head fall back from the feeling. I throw my pants off and climb on top of him. I lean down to kiss his neck as I slowly slip him into me. "Fuck.." he growls under his breath. I slowly move back and forth as I sit up looking down at him. He was under my control.
I move faster and faster bouncing on his dick. I let out moans of pleasure but he growls and grunted. He couldn't help himself until he finally finished, letting out the most pathetic moan I've ever heard.
I chuckle before hopping off and clothing myself again. I look to Steve who was confused by me not laying with him right after. "I can't do this anymore." I confess.
"Did you know that before or after you fucked me." He asks now pissed off. "Before.." I shrug. "But I can't even keep track of all the times you'd use my body for sex."
"Fuck you." He snarls. "You just did." I say with a cheeky smile as I pull my shirt back on. I turned but he had gotten up and pinned me against the wall. "You're not done with me." He says with gritted teeth. "Get your shit together before you speak that way to me." I say actually fighting back. He looked thrown off by my attitude. I push him off of me and he just stares at the wall as I walk out.

I walk with Sam, Steve, and Hill through the woods next to SHIELD headquarters. I place my mask on ready for the fight. "You still wear that thing?" Steve asks sounding belittling. "It's the one thing I have been able to hold on to since World War II." I say giving him a death glare, "I'm using the hell out of it." I say continuing to walk.