Pain behind those grey eyes

32.Mama

I looked at myself in the mirror and a loud gasp left my lips at my upon seeing my condition. My neck and breast area are all covered in hickeys and marks given by him. Shit, I don't even remember him giving me more than one and two because I was in my own world of pleasure.

God...he is really wild in bed!

I decided on wearing a turtle neck and jeans to cover my hickey even in this hot weather and limped downstairs with a lot of difficulty. I was very much sore after last night and I couldn't help but blush everytime when the memories of last flashed in my mind, me and him kissing and caressing each other, exploring our body, wrapped in between sheets, his body above mine.

Ugh!!! I can think like this it's just fucking. I can't...Period.

I walked towards the kitchen and I could even hear the chattering of the Parker's from here. They are all in the kitchen, I guess catching up with each other.

I went inside and saw the scene, Sam and grandpa were chatting with each other while Smith was nodding after every second, actively participating in the conversation while his grandma is busy flipping pancakes humming to some random tune. Well, the pancakes are looking delicious as heaven.

"Good morning honey... how'd you sleep?" His Grandma asked giving me warm smile when she noticed me staring.

"Good morning, I'm sorry I'm very late...and I think...I should have asked you this question." I replied letting out an awkward laugh and everyone attention snapped towards me. Shit, this is so embarassing already, his grandparents are here waiting for me while I was sleeping soundly. I just hope they don't make any bad impression about me.

"Oh sush Sia... it's fine dear really. Smith told me you were not feeling well. Take care sweetie." She replied non chalantly giving me a warm smile again. Phew! At least she is not angry.

"Good morning everyone..." I looked towards the Smith, Sam and grandpa and they all are already looking at me.

"Good morning sweetie...come on sit, have breakfast with us, your grandma makes amazing pankcakes." Grandpa said giving me a broad smile and I nodded. I could feel the heated gaze of Smith on me but I didn't acknowledged him. Why? Because honestly I don't know how to react and what to say to him after last night?

Was it a one time thing only?

Does he regret it?

Or this is an arrangement of just casual sex?

I'm so damn confused so...we really need to have a long talk.

Sam ran towards me and hugged my legs distracting my mind from my overthinking and I wasted no time in picking him up in my arms. It's a little bit difficult in picking him up with my sore vagina and wobbly legs but I need him right now. I need my baby boy. I buried my nose in his hair and hugged him tight, inhaling his comforting scent.

"Goodmorning baby..." I said to him kissing all over his face, earning a giggle from him. I feel so lucky to see his happy face every morning.

"Good morning."

"You look so pretty...m-mama." He whispered in my ears and wrapped his arms around my neck. My eyes went wide upon hearing that word from his mouth and I froze in my place. A certain kind of emotion erupted in my heart for Sam, and tears came into my eyes.

"W-What did you s-said baby?" I asked shivering a little while my voice was thick with emotions. I never thought even in my wildest imaginations that this small word could hold this much power.

"Mama..." He grinned at me, showing his pearls like white teeth. I kissed his forehead and cheeks in happiness and we walked towards the dinning table, he settled on the chair beside me. I took the plate and served Sam and myself.

I was only focusing on my plate because honestly I'm so over the moon right now and I really need to calm my emotions.
I'm sure everyone had already heard what he said because even though Sam thought he only whispered but still it was loud enough for everyone to hear.

So, finally I sneaked a glance at Smith. He was looking at us, with a little hurt expression but he quickly masked it with his usual poker face and looked down, focussing on the food in his plate.

Shit!

"How's the food kids?" Grandma chirped excitedly and I showed her my thumbs up because my mouth was filled with food.

"T-Tasty.." Sam replied with a mouthful of food in his mouth. We all chuckled at him and his cheeks got red in embarrassment.

"It's delicious grandma." Smith said.

"Thankyou so much dear..." She said and I ate in silence after that while grandpa and grandma are chatting with Sam. Smith was silent too after that, just focusing on his plate. I could sense the inner turmoil inside him from here and I'm sure that must be going to explode on me.

Suddenly, grandma cleared her throat again, drawing our attention towards her. "Hey kids....what do you think about inviting Sam's grandparents today for dinner? I haven't met them in ages."

"Ofcourse...we can grandma." Smith replied and stood up taking his dish in the kitchen.

"Okay... I'll invite them. Sia dear? Why don't you invite your family as well. I really wanna meet them." Grandma said clapping her hands in excitement.

"Sure.. I will." I replied and looked down at my almost empty plate. I was finished too but I really don't want to engage in any conversation with Smith in the kitchen when everybody is present. We need privacy. So, when I heard him going upstairs that's when I stood up taking mine and Sam's plate with me and headed upstairs towards his bed room.

I was now outside the room, fidgeting with the bracelet on my right hand in nervousness. I knocked on the door and heard his faint 'come in'.

Okay... breath in, breath out.

Let's do this...

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