Feelings about the unknown

Part 10

Colby's POV

After the day Sam and I got into that argument, he has been a little bit distant with me. I know we made up and continued to do work that night. Everything seemed fine until the next day he refused to go into my room and dare I say, not touch me or get close to me. Maybe after the conversation yesterday he realized that the solby ship made him uncomfortable. That is the last thing I want to do is make Sam uncomfortable. I just wish he would communicate with me and talk to me about how he is feeling, but at least he has Kat to talk to if he can't come to me.

I sit at my desk thinking of ideas for the channel in the coming future. Sam went to dinner with Kat and said he would not be back till late. We were supposed to sit down and discuss ideas, but I went ahead and started early. I want to show him that everything is okay between us and I am excited for the future. For our future. I blush at myself. Colby stop thinking about that, we already had this conversation with ourselves years ago when Sam and Kat got together. Just be grateful you still have him as a friend.

'screech.....boom' I hear Sam and Kat come back. I look at my door hearing them coming up the stairs, waiting for Sam to come into my room. "Yeah, that sushi was good. We need to go there again." Sam says to Kat in the hallway. I can't hear Kat at all, she has such a low voice. "No Colby and I need to work on some things." I wonder what they are talking about. Is he coming in here or not. "Okay, Ill just tell him we will do it tomorrow." I hear Sam say and then Kat's bedroom door closes. All that is left was silence. I guess Sam is not coming over tonight.

I stare at my bedroom door, just waiting and slightly hoping that it will be Sam. Instead, I hear my phone go off. I hesitate to look at it, knowing what it says. I sigh and look, "Kat wanted to watch a movie, is it okay if we do the brainstorming tomorrow?" I read the text that Sam sent. My heart drops, but I don't understand why I am so upset. He is doing nothing wrong and this is how things have been for a while, but for some reason this feels different. "Yeah, that is okay. I will see you tomorrow." After sending the message I get up and plop down on my bed. I stare up at the ceiling with my hands under my head. I am probably just overthinking. One day my feelings will change, and I won't have to suffer.

Sam's POV

I am sitting on Kat's bed staring at the message that Colby just sent me. I set my phone down and start to think about today. After the conversation that Kat and I had last night, I wanted to put a barrier between Colby and I for the sake of my relationship. At the time it was not a big deal because there is not anything between Colby and I, but after going through today and trying to be distant on purpose has really showed me how comfortable and close Colby and I were. I made sure to not go into his personal space, so I don't make Kat uncomfortable. I even tried to hang out with Kat a little bit more and just focus my attention on her. So, I took her to her favorite Sushi restaurant and left my phone on silent so I would not be tempted to text Colby back.

"What movie do you want to watch?" I hear Kat say, snapping me out of my thoughts. I look at her and shrug "Whatever you want to watch, I know some new stuff came out." I crawl next to her and I leave my phone at the edge of the bed so I don't get distracted. Kat begins to go through movies on Netflix, I lay my head on her shoulder just looking at the TV, not necessarily paying attention.

I start to think about Colby and if I am doing the right thing. We were supposed to brainstorm some ideas for the channel tonight, but when Kat and I got back she wanted to watch a movie. I declined but I could tell she was still upset about our conversation yesterday. I really hope Colby didn't stay up just for that, but we will discuss it tomorrow. Kat finally picks a movie and moves down on the bed where her head was on my chest and a leg was over my waist. I wrap my arms around her and nestle down to get comfortable.

I kiss the top of her head and rub my thumb on her arm. While watching the movie I start to go over in my head what to say to Colby. The only thing is, I can not tell him about Kat and I's conversation. He would be really hurt by it and question why I chose Kat over him. When in reality I don't have the answers for that. I sigh and lean back; I am probably overthinking. My feelings need to change, I don't want to make Kat suffer.