Feelings about the unknown

Part 9

Kats POV

As I head back from my friends house I cannot help but think what Sam and Colby are doing. I know they were getting along when I left, but what if something else was said or what if something else happened? I know it is not my place to say anything, but these boys really depend on each other.

I get out of the car and see that the lights are on. Sam and Colby must be home. I go up to the door and slowly open it, just to make sure I am not disturbing them if they are doing a video or having a small meeting.

I slowly walk in the house and go through the kitchen not seeing or hearing Sam or Colby. I will just go to my room, I need to check my emails and catch up on my show. I go up the stairs and as I was about to enter my room I hear Sam's voice coming from Colby's room. I slowly walk toward the door and for some reason my heart begins to beat fast.

I open Colby's door and see him sitting at his desk on his computer. His back was to the door, and he was clicking something on the screen. But it was not just Colby with his back facing the door, but Sam as well. Sam is leaning over the back of Colby's chair and his arms are draped over Colby's chest and his face is right beside Colby's. They both were staring at the screen discussing something.

My heart drops and I can feel my face getting red. I slowly close the door making sure they don't know I was there. I head to my room and close the door, I lean up against my closed door looking up at the ceiling. I need to say something now or things will go to far.

A few hours pass and I hear a knock on my door. I am currently on my bed, looking at my phone. "Come in" I say in a soft voice knowing who it is. I don't know if I am ready for this discussion. Sam opens my bedroom door and comes in closing the door behind him. I sit up on my bed looking at him. He looks back at me, he knows something is wrong. "Are you okay?" Sam asks me while still by the door. I sigh and pat my bed, gesturing him to sit down.

Sam walks over and I can tell he is nervous and confused. He sat down on the edge of my bed and looked up at me. His beautiful blue eyes look scared, his blond hair is all messy from doing work. I crawl and sit by him. "Is their anything going on between you and Colby?" I look down while I ask this, terrified of what he might say or confess. "You mean from today? Everything is fine between us. You know we have been through a lot more." Sam grabs my hand and looks at me intently, more likely thinking the conversation is done. I begin to feel tears welp up in my eyes. I caress Sam's hand with my thumb. " I.. I don't mean from today. I mean is there more between ya'll?" I feel a tear roll down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away.

Sam gets on his knees in front of me and grabs both of my hands. He wipes my tears away and cups my right cheek with his hand. I look at him with tears still in my eyes. When I look at him, all I can think about is how scared I am to lose him. "Kat, nothing like that is going on between Colby and I. We are just friends." Sam continues to wipe tears from my eyes. I begin to get aggravated.

I stand up quickly and walk to the side of the room. Either Sam doesn't realize, or I am completely overreacting. I turn to see Sam still on his knees, looking up at me worried. "Sam, I don't think friends fake sleeping together and it not being awkward" I cross my arms looking at him. "It was just a prank Kat!" Sam began to raise his voice. He was getting annoyed with me. "But when ya'll were doing the prank, it sounded too real like ya'll have done something before." I walk back to my bed and sit down. I cross my arms getting annoyed with this conversation.

Sam sits down by me and puts his hand on my knee. I begin to feel tears welling up in my eyes again. I look down at Sam's hand on my knee. "I am just scared I don't make you happy anymore" I feel a tear run down my face and I wipe it. Sam grabs my chin with his fingers so that way I look at him. "You do make me very happy, and I promise that nothing is going on between Colby and I." I nod while still crying. Sam hugs me, I hesitate to hug back but I feel his grip grow tighter. I hug him and I finally have peace.