Feelings about the unknown

Part 17

Sam's POV

As I was sitting on the bed staring at my hands, I could feel the tears start to leave my eyes. I open my mouth to explain the situation, but nothing will come out. Just a small sob escapes and I close my eyes and begin to cry. Colby sits on the bed by me and hugs me. Without even thinking I hugged him back and started crying on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry..." is all I can muster. Colby hugged me tighter and started to rub my back.

"It'll be okay, we will figure something out," Colby says, I nod my head in agreement.

I start to breathe heavily; Colby hears this and gets up. He goes to the bathroom and gets me a cup of water. I sit on the side of the bed staring at the floor. Colby kneels in front of me and puts the cup of water in my hand.

"Drink this Sam, please," Colby says as he stares up at my red blotched face.

I nod and begin to drink the water. Once I was done, I wiped my face and started to calm down. I take a deep breath and look at Colby. His eyes are full of worry, and they look as if he is scared.

I never wanted to scare him or put him in this situation. Colby gets up and sits back down by me, putting his arm around my shoulder. I stay looking down at the ground.

"So, what is going on?" Colby asks me.

"A lot has happened dude." I take a deep breath and look at Colby.

"Kat and I broke up." Colby's face goes pale, and he stares at me. I look down at my hands and entangle my fingers.

"I am so sorry to hear that," Colby says as he looks down at the ground.

"When did this happen?" Colby asks me while glancing over at me.

"Just now when I went outside. She said we have been busy with our careers and have grown apart. She is not wrong; I just did not ever think this would happen." I say while sighing and looking at Colby. Colby nods

"I am very sorry that happened. But I am sure you both will stay friends and both of y'all are busy from traveling and doing y'all's jobs so maybe it won't be a bad change." He says while he stands up in front of me.

I nod and look up at him. Colby is right, maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Also, we are both happy with our careers and if we happen to meet again later in life then maybe it will work out then. I smile to myself thinking of the great memories we had together.

"So, what about this?" Colby asks, pointing at the laptop with the video still open.

I get out of my thoughts and glance over. Immediately my heartbeat starts to pick up. I look away and shrug my shoulders.

"Don't give me that shit Sam. Now why did you not tell me about it?" Colby raises his voice a little.

I sigh and look up at him. He was staring at me so intently like he was trying to look into my eyes for an answer.

"I have been a skeptic my entire life, Colby. We have had numerous conversations about the other side and if there is anything beyond us. That video just scared me so badly and as a skeptic, caused me to try to find a reason behind it. I could not think of one, so I want to forget about it." I close my eyes and start to question everything I believe in.

Colby scratches his head and sighs. He grabs the laptop and looks at the video, he closes the laptop. I look up at him and can feel the disappointment radiating from him. He sits back down by me with the laptop still in his hands.

"I understand how you feel dude, I do. And you are right, we have had many conversations about that stuff. I guess I was just hoping you would come to me if you felt scared or in danger." Colby says as he places his hand on top of the laptop.

I look away, Colby is right. Why did I not go to him when I felt scared? He is the closest person to me. Did I not want to worry him? Or was I just being selfish and thought I could handle this all by myself? I don't know, but it is not fair to Colby.

I place my hand onto Colby's "I am sorry, I don't know why I did not go to you. You deserve better than what I have been lately." I start to feel my eyes get heavy from wanting to cry.

Colby places his other hand on my shoulder. I look up at him.

"Thank you, dude. Next time let's go through it together and figure it out together. I care about you, Sam." Colby says while staring into my eyes. I could tell he was being genuine, and he meant it.

"I care about you too dude." I smile and look away, removing my hand from his.

Colby and I sit in silence for a little while. We both look down at the ground and around the room, unsure what to say or do. Suddenly Colby slaps his knees and stands up, startling me.

"Well, first things first. Let's go get you cleansed and get this "thing" out of your ass and get you some ice cream for the breakup." Colby says while smiling at me and holding out his hand for me.

I smiled and began to chuckle at his response. He always knows how to make a situation not so grim. I nod and grab his hand, letting him help me up.