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Chapter 52

My finger traces the piercings of his chest as I lay on it, having his arm around me, both of us fully naked. He's not and never was always so touchy with me but we both woke up in each other's arms and didn't want to move for a while.

I really don't want to ruin this moment but we have to talk about what he said to me yesterday about my brother. And I need to ask him if he's angry about Y/n eavesdropping on us because he looked at me like I was the one who told her to follow us.

I don't want him to feel like I betrayed him. I never ever want him to even think I'm capable of it.

"What is it?"

"Hm?"

"Don't 'hm' me, you're clearly thinking about something. Tell me." Fuck him for reading me so easily.

"Yesterday," I hesitate because I'm not sure how I am supposed to ask him. "Before you notice Y/n's feather-"

"I wasn't mad at you." I raise my head to look at him and, god damn it, the way he's looking down on me is hot. "Well, I was mad but not at you."

"Okay," I nod, trying not to show him that he's turning me on by simply looking at me. "And what you said about Keigo; Did you mean..."

I can't even say it. I know his answer but I'm praying to hear a different one because I have no idea which side to take on.

I am angry at Keigo but after giving it some thought, Asami was right. I can't blame a child's actions for being scared it'd lose its life. I will go back and talk to him after a couple of days; I know he's feeling awful right now and I was very harsh with him. Nonetheless, I had every right to be. I also know he will try finding me and I'm sure he can, so the sooner I talk to him, the better.

"Sorry, Hina," Can't say I wasn't expecting it. "I'm not gonna back down just because he is your brother."

"I know..." I mumble, burying my face in his neck. I hate the thoughts my brain decides to think. I hate that it's right. I hate that I really love someone who is straight up telling me he wants to kill my brother and won't back down even for me. I hate it that I understand him. "I'm not going to say I won't get in the way because I have no idea what I should do."

I have no idea what he's gonna do either. If I do get in the way, he won't hurt me but I will never convince him to let him live. So, when we face that situation, his next move is unpredictable.

I'm pathetic. I'm not even trying to think of a way to protect my brother and I have no intention of telling him Dabi's plan. Am I really going to let him kill him? Am I so hopelessly in love with this man to let him harm one of the people I care about the most?

Do I really love Dabi more than my own family?

He sits up on the edge of the bed next to me and stretches his neck. I reach for his nape and shoulders to massage him and I've never felt him so tense.

"I think you went overboard last night," I tease him as a smirk forms on my lips.

"I think you liked it." I can't see him but I can surely hear the grin on his face. I slap his back lightly and grab my clothes from the floor to get dressed. "If you're into slaps too-"

"Shut up." I threw his jacket, which I was hoping would fall on his head but he's Dabi, so he caught it. "Do you think she heard everything we said?"

I really wish I could talk to Y/n right now. Her internship ends today, so she has to return home. I wanted to talk to both of them at the same time if it were possible.

"Probably."

I don't want her to think I'm keeping Touya a secret to hurt Keigo. I did punch him—a deserved punch—but I would never make him feel more guilty than he already is.