Footsteps of a Fallen Angel

Chapter 29. Friend or Foe

Warnings: Attempted Suicide/talk of Suicide 

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"Oi Shig, Twice has been trying to reach you. He's got some info about this one g—" Dabi's voice came to an abrupt end as he saw me practically naked from the torso up, the bedsheet wrapped around my waist loosely with Tomura entangled in them.

Tomura shouted, "What the hell Dabi? Knock or something! Can't you see we're busy?"

I had my back face both of them as Dabi completely ignored Tomura and spoke to me, "So you're still fucking this jerk despite what an ass he is to you?"

"You're just je—" Tomura's words were once again cut off by Dabi.

"Shut the fuck up. Nobody's jealous here. I've slept with her plenty of times. All those times in where you've been a jerk to her, I've been the one to console her."

Tomura's arms around me loosened up as he rasped, "What?" I quickly placed my underwear and skirt on, "You really have been sleeping with him?" Tomura's voice was shocked. "Since when?"

With my bare back facing them I stood silent. Dabi continued to talk, "[Y/N] and I have been sleeping with each other since several weeks ago. Not that it's any of your business. You're not her boyfriend."

"Well you aren't either." Tomura retorted.

It was there when I understood why these dark impulses, these dark emotions, and hatred came from. They came from the pain that I so desperately wanted to make disappear.

Now was one of those times.

"Stop it both of you!" I shouted with a dark tone. "Both of you... you two fighting, it's nonsense. A waste of time!"

"You know that's not true." Dabi told me.

Tomura addressed me, "You know our deal, you know I can't give you what you want because of the situation we live in and yet... you're here fucking Dabi too?"

"Don't say it like you actually care." I hissed. "In the end, all you two ever want from me will be just sex."

"Hey don't lump me in with this guy." Dabi protested.

"You shut your mouth." Tomura snapped at Dabi, "You're not even supposed to be here."

"I'm in this mess too." Dabi rolled his eyes.

"Enough!" I yelled as they started to bicker again. "In the end, it's like you said Tomura. I get it now. Villains are not supposed to feel love or be in love. Feelings just complicate things." I admitted with defeat. "It's best we forget this ever happened."

"You don't mean that..." Tomura eyed me.

I sighed, "I didn't sleep with you this time because I love you. I did it because I just felt the need to. It was just me acting upon lust." I confessed shakily, "Same with you Dabi... I'm just... this is it, the end. I can't do this... I can't keep doing this. It hurts too much. I can't continue this... not like I am now. It's such a mess. I don't even know who I am half of the time."

"[Y/N]..."

"Doll..."

"Don't. Maybe this is for the best. I don't need this anymore. Tomura you'll never love me and it was wrong of me to push those feelings to you. I was being immature in not accepting that you don't love me. And Dabi, I shouldn't have used you to get my mind off Tomura. This'll just complicate things. So it's best we end this... and just be comrades. I know we can all work together and take those heroes down. And we'll do it!" my tone became disarrayed.