Junoon Aur Sukoon

outburst

Start

Ks pov

Isn't it ironic that the people who always seem to be strong only they knows what amount of pain they are hiding inside. Here i am seeing my love staring right into my eyes, the eyes that are filled with tears and in these tears what i am able to see is tiredness, i think tiredness for always being strong because u didn't have any other option.

When i left from here earlier i was relieved, i know the situation was tense and still it is but for me i felt free, its like there was something that was always blocking me from trusting people yeah that was fear and at that moment i felt freed from that fear. And see how amusing it is, that the moment i felt free from my fear is the moment she came face to face with her fears.

I came back because obviously i was not able to sleep without her being next to me, also thinking what would have happened after i left so i enter through balcony but she was not in her room, so i tried tip toeing downstairs but the house is eerily quiet so maybe i failed. Anyways i reached downstairs to see her sitting on floor resting her back to door and man in the dim light of hall how breathtakingly beautiful she was looking, i mean she always looks beautiful but at that moment hayee.

Then i reached near her trying to be as quiet as possible so her sleep doesn't get disturbed, then crouched down and i was just lost seeing her and as always no matter how many times i look at her it always feel i am looking for first time, i don't know for how long i was staring at her but the trance got broken as she stir a little, and a idiotic smile crept on my face, then i cupped her cheek softly and leaned forward to place a kiss on her forehead as always because she looks so peaceful, so innocent sleeping that it becomes irresistible, only i know how i control myself to only kiss her forehead and not go anywhere else like if you know. But this time as moved closer she tenses and i realised she is awake because other time when i do this she usually relaxes and i am not lying a small smile appears on her face everytime, so i thought to let her pretend for sometime and anyways kissed her, then i lift her in bridal style to take her upstairs, if she will sit like this whole night, her lower back and neck will be stiffened by morning. As i picked her she snuggled more into me and it was cute, her snuggling like a baby too and also her pretending to be in sleep.

As i reached upstairs i told her and i was not intentional teasing her but it happened and i chuckled seeing her reaction but i think that was not a very good move because the person in front of you is The Haseena Mallik. Her lips suddenly connected to my soft spot and a current ran through my body and i stammered, i was moving towards her room and her reply told me that she in mood of teasing and i didn't mind if it was some other time but right now we really have something in our hand to deal with, so i quickly placed her on floor before she tortures me further. And as she opened her eyes and her gaze fall on my face her playful smile turned into concern and i tried to give her dramatic reply to cheer her but didn't helped as reality hit us. I moved towards her sitting on bed next to her, i asked what happened and she told me everything and she was blaming herself that she would have broken my trust. She doesn't have a slightest idea of how much i love her and how much i trust her and how would she, i never expressed that and i am going to do that very soon, telling her that the only thing she has broken is the past strings that was holding me for so long, telling her that i trust her so much that i would have ever trusted myself but for now i told her what i was able to.

Seeing her this vulnerable wouldn't be the sight i want to watch again, no she is looking absolutely stunning as always with her hair in a low bun and some locks falling on her face adding to her beauty, with the tears her cheeks are glowing and her little cute nose being slightly red with crying, she is looking cute and beautiful and i am glad that i am here for her at this moment but the feeling that she was feeling inside, the feeling of breaking slowly, the feeling of seeing pieces of herself shattering slowly that she was holding for so long, the feeling of tiredness, I don't want her to feel that ever again and that's why i also want her to let out all so that she doesn't have to suffer from the same pain again, so i took her hand and pulled her towards myself while resting my back on head board, she came and settled herself beside me while resting her head on my chest and wrap a hand around my stomach gripping it tightly, i wrapped my both hands around her and slowly started stroking her upper arm to soothe her as tears were flowing through her eyes while she was silent and the tears could tell how much she is holding in herself maybe something more than this, i didn't ask her if anything else is bothering her because i don't wanted her to came back to usual haseena mallik avatar but her tears and her grip was saying something else. I just kissed on top of her head assuring her that i am here for her always. After some time i felt her breathing calmly means she fell asleep while crying, must've been having a good sleep as sleep after crying feels best, i again placed a kiss on her hairs before closing my eyes for sleep to take over.