Junoon Aur Sukoon

Its either lose or lose

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Ks pov

Hearing the sound, we jerked away in reflex and i saw ammi entering the room, and i started looking here and there avoiding looking at her, Haseena ji was standing two steps away from me and my eyes fall on her face for a second and i saw a familiar expression, the fear. Ohh now i get what she thinking in the jeep earlier, it was certainly what will happen when ammi will get to know about us, then my eyes moved towards her hand and she was shaking them lightly intentionally i think to shake off her fear and nervousness and it would be a lie if i say that my heart is still not beating a mile pr second by thinking of the consequences. Firstly i don't wanted her to face something like this but its inevitable, one day it has to come out and i can't count how many times i had gotten anxious by just thinking about that day and the day is finally here, the scene of me and riya standing in dean's office in front of our parents is continuously running in my mind, what if haseena ji did the same as Riya did, i guess then i believe that not only dreams but nightmares also came true but i will not blame her for that, i trust her whatever she will do, there's definitely will be a reason for it, maybe she doesn't knew what she was getting herself into when she proposed me, i think it was just her adamant nature to make me confess, my mind is playing tricks on me, at this point my palms bailed into a fist and were sweaty and my eyes starting tearing up, and only one thought constantly running in my mind, i don't want to lose her.

"Haseena humne jo abhi suna wo mazak tha na" ammi said with calmness in her voice i think trying to convince herself that what she listened awhile ago was not true.

I glanced at haseena ji, maybe she was contemplating things or maybe gathering courage or maybe trying to find excuse, "am...ammi..hum...hum aapko.." she was stuttering and i swear i didn't saw haseenaji being so fearful about something, and i can't see her like this even if that means my nightmare comes true so i looked at ammi who was looking at Haseena ji patiently so i slowly moved closer to her and hold her hand and took it behind her so ammi wouldn't notice, i squeeze her hand little assuring her that everything is fine and i said while gulping a lump in my throat, "ji ammi, hum mazak hi...."

"Nhi ammi ye mazak nhi kr rhe thi, hum dono sach me ek dusre se pyar krte hai" Haseena said in one go while cutting me off, my head immediately whipped towards her and a tear rolled down her cheeks while she was maintaining eye contact with ammi like if she even blink for a second something will happen, i turned my head towards ammi and maybe after processing what just Haseena ji said ammi moved towards haseena ji and her hand came swinging towards her but before it could hit her i came in front while pushing her back, and i must say ammi have powerful hands, i heard haseenaji gasp,"krishu.." while her hand automatically rested on my shoulder, my whole cheek was stinging from the impact. Then i looked at ammi who was looking at us with a unreadable expression and i think that's obvious too as ofcourse these kind of relations are not common in India and i doubt even if she had heard about it before and know now she suddenly got to know that her daughter loves a girl.

"Ammi hum...." I tried to explain to her but she cut me off, "karishma abhi ja yaha se" i can see she is holding herself from lashing out on me but i don't want her to lash put on haseena ji either.

"Am..." I again tried but haseena ji stopped me by giving a squeeze to my shoulder, i looked over at her and she gave me assuring nod that telling me to go, i again looked at ammi then at her nodding and release my hold on her hand and she removed her hand from my shoulder and i walked away from there.

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