TW: SH
I read a quote these days saying : " Your skin without your scars would be like the sky without the stars."
How messed up did we become to normalise this?
Why do we feel the need to normalise this?
I tried to do this as well...for a long time..in order to validate my actions. But what is there to validate?
I used to think of it like this : I'm creating beautiful lines on a disgusting canvas, I dip my brush in silver, but the lines turn red...
I just wanted to punish myself...
the process hurts, then it comes the disinfecting part...I always made it as painful as possible.. and feel it every day. If the scars were fading too soon, I didn't do a good job...
I collected scars because I wanted to have proof that I'm paying for the sins that I thought that I've committed....I wanted to suffer... but now I want to heal.
Our scars show our fight...yet, our downfall..
We hurt ourselves in order to not hurt others. But dearest, a soul in pain shatters everyone because that's what it feels and involuntary emits that to everyone.
We hurt ourselves in order to feel something...to escape. But why do we torture ourselves like this?
We are already in pain. Why push it even further? Why not let it heal?
We deserve to heal...
