I believe I have a concussion, both physically and mentally.
For as long as I can recall, I have taught myself to never rely on others and to manage things by myself, no matter how I feel or if I am capable. I wanted to prove to some people in my life that I do not need anyone and that I am perfectly capable of anything. This has made me struggle a lot, but I kept telling myself that I am an independent person and that I am fine by myself, and that I don't need anyone.
Today, I hit my head quite badly, but I did not want to admit it. It scares me to make people worry about me because it makes me feel weak. I was with a classmate and tried my hardest to seem fine. However, she became very concerned when I became very pale and started shaking, throwing up and not being able to keep my balance.
A strong will can keep you going, or should I say, an impeccable learned act can hide it perfectly...at least for a few hours.
As I began to feel even worse, I called my best friend of five years. Even though we have known each other for some time and are very close, I never deliberately asked her to do anything for me or help me with something. I knew I could count on her, but I never did. I simply told her that I was hurt and that I did not feel fine. I just wanted to tell someone the truth, just in case.
After 20 minutes, my friend came running to me with ice, vitamins, chocolate, one of my favourite drinks, and a lot of nagging and instructions on what I should do. It made me feel so loved. I never thought that someone other than my family would actually drop everything just to help me or do something for me. I have never had a friend try at least to do this. It truly warmed my heart to see that someone genuinely cares for me so deeply.
This gave me a mental concussion though.
Was I so caught up in my act of having it all together and being Miss Do-It-All that I never considered asking for help? Why do I keep thinking that I am not worth helping?
After hitting my head, my thoughts went silent. I just want to sleep, but supposedly I am not allowed to, so I wanted to tell you about my today...
How caught up are we in this fake act that we do not notice the people who are willing not only to give us the moon but also the sun and all the stars?
When was the last time that you actually accepted someone's help, compliment, advice, or even love?
