PAUL LAHOTE

growth

it's been about five months now that i've been pregnant. 3 months when everyone found out. everything has been going great. paul's and i's relationship have been a whole lot better, now that there's a baby on the way. we still don't know what gender it is yet. we still haven't figured out any names to be honest.

    i've been thinking though i like the names ashley, brooklyn, mia, mya, lydia, sarah, and lyla. for boy names i thought of levi, sam, dean, jake, neal, marley, kaleb, or christian. i don't know which one to choose once the baby comes though.

    paul thought have malia to name if we had a daughter. levi if we have a boy. i love those names but i think if it was a girl, it'd be Olivia which i know wasn't one of the options but i guess it is now. and a boy, it'd be Draco. i would love if it was a boy becuase i love the movie series Harry Potter; its a great series, honestly. maybe if it was two boys blaise and draco. two girls hermione and ginny. i'm kind of hoping to have 4 boys not right now but maybe when i'm older along the way.

like for boys, Draco, Blaise, Ron, and Harry. for the girls, Hermione, Ginny, Luna, or Minerva; for professor Mcgonagall. i know it's cheesy to want to name kids after Harry Potter. don't judge me though. i would love, absolutely love, to have kids named Draco and Blaise. i'd name my first two kids that if they were both boys.

suddenly i heard someone behind me grab me i'm by the waist. i knew immediately who it was. "hey, babe. what are you thinking about?" he kissed my forehead and smiled.

i looked up at him and then laid my head back on his chest. "oh, you know, just thinking about naming our kid or kids after Harry Potter characters." i smiled up at him.

he looked down at me with a shocked look on his face as he started talking. "you're seriously going through with that?" he said getting a little mad. i didn't know why they were cute names in my opinion.

"i mean, yeah. i-" i started to say but paul cut me off as i could tell he was getting madder. "i don't want you to name our child after Harry Potter characters! it's dumb names!" he shouted. i slightly opened my mouth not knowing what to say and got out of his grip.

"you know, if their just names then i guess this relationship doesn't mean anything huh? it's my baby! i'm doing all the work! so in the end...i can name my baby whatever the fuck i want. i don't need you're consent, got me?" i started getting angry. before he could say anything else i just walked out of the room.

i started to let the tears out as i left the house and went to go over to jakes. i was bummed at what paul had said. they were cute names! why would he fight over names?

i guess jake could hear me with his super sense it's what i call it. he had ran out of the house and engulfed me in a tight hug. we stood there a minute or two until he let go and started examining me to see if i was alright.

"what happened?"

i looked up at him locking eyes with him for the first time since he had me in that hug. "i- i- paul...we got..into this fight over baby names. he didn't want to name our child after Harry Potter characters and you know how i love Harry Potter...so he got mad and said no that it's stupid. so i told him that if it's stupid then this relationship is to and then i walked off and came here before he could say anything." i started to cry a little more and tried to pull myself together. "and you know how much i love the names Draco and Blaise."

jake then pulled me into another hug, shushing me, telling me that it's gonna be okay. "i'm gonna kill him. you didn't deserve that. he had no right to yell at my sister like that."

hey guys. so i'm going to leave it off here. i'll post a little more later. i don't know when though. i have school in a couple of days and i'll be engulfed in my schoolwork like normal. but somehow i seem to find ways to get back on my phone.

anyways i love you all very much!!!

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