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chapter 75.

AGHHHH SCHOOL BEEN KICKING MY ASS BUT WE BACK AND ON SPRING BREAK SO WURRRRRR YK THAT MEANS MORE UPDATESSSS

but anywaysss enjoy this aftermath chapter...

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chapter 75
rule 75. don't be too hard on yourself about the things you're trying to change, even if it takes time
6:30am in NYC
Kori's POV

"Samir, wake up," I said lightly shaking him.

My mom had already left for work and my dad was in the shower.

I slept so sound with Samir, and I hated having to wake up. But I didn't have a choice.

For one, I had to get him out the house.

And second, we both had to go to school.

He groaned a bit turning back over. I rubbed his back until he finally sat up.

"You have to leave now. I know you like just woke up." he nodded before standing up and stretching.

He put back on his sweats, hoodie, and puffer. Then took his shoes and skateboard before walking behind me as I headed downstairs.

"I'll see you at school," I said lowly, hugging him.

"I might not come today. Depends, but I'll text you," I frowned at his comment but shrugged it off. Why would he leave me at school? So for fake.

"If you really don't wanna go home, you could probably stay here..." I suggested and he gave me a light smile.

"It's okay, I'll be okay." That's all he says, and it never is.

Then I opened the front door and watched him walk off in the direction to his place.

I took my time to fix up my room and things until my dad got out and I could finally get ready.

I hope he doesn't get screamed at when he gets to the apartment.

I hope I didn't get him in trouble.

I just hope he's safe.

me: text me when you get home, tell me what happens if something does happen, i love you

when my dad finally got out the bathroom, I took a shower. I was gonna shower in silence which is very unlike me. But the recent heavy feelings just weren't pushing me to listen to music.

But I decided that I needed to try and feel better, because I didn't want to be in a mood all day. Plus both of us can't feel sad, one of us has to feel good. Maybe then I could even show him love hopefully he'll feel better.

So I put on some Jhene.

Closer to my destiny
Closer to the connection
Closer to what I'm destined to be
Closer to you
Closer to my destiny
Closer to the connection
Closer, we are connected
Don't you feel your connection to me?

Personally, life has been treating me pretty nice. Family has been good. I haven't been as stressed as usual. I've been happier. And writing my poems in my free time. Mentally I'm doing better. A lot better.

But Samir is not in that state of mind. He's still adjusting to the new apartment and the dynamic. They're arguing more. He has to catch up on work but he can't focus.

He often tries to shrug it off as normal, saying he's okay so I don't get worried, getting high to relax, tuning things out, acting like it isn't that serious. Because even though it is serious, he's too accustomed to it.