𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘 - high&low the worst: x cross

FINAL NOTES

────dear trust fund baby readers

Oops did I say Reiji was the male lead? Nope. Just like Gina I was also in a pretty bad emotionally abusive relationship. But unlike her ending, I did not give myself time to heal. Writing Gina's ending like this was my way of coping if that makes sense.

After a shitty relationship, you should always give yourself time to heal. Your feelings matter and you should always take things slow after something traumatic, no matter how much you think the incident wasn't anything big. Emotional abuse is draining especially since there are no physical signs. It makes it harder when the people around you tell you it's your fault that you didn't leave earlier or when the first red flag presented itself. While for Gigi it was Kōhei telling her that he flirted with Aya because his father told him to, for me it was my ex getting mad at me for going outside with my fucking cousin and then things escalating horribly after that. I have gotten over it as in the 6th month of the relationship I lost all the feelings I ever had for him and spent the next 4 trying to break up with him. Lol... But yeah 0/10 would not recommend it to anyone.

I got victimized quite a lot even after we broke up as people told me it was my fault for taking 4 months to break up with him even though they knew how I tried 4 times and even considered cheating just so he'd leave me first since he wasn't letting me break up with him. Yeah, shittiest 9 months of my life. I'm still very much in the process of healing but it's given me crazy trauma. Now, whenever a guy says anything even remotely close to the fucked up things my ex used to say I lose feelings instantly. Like I'm not even kidding when I say instantly. I lost feelings for my prom date on prom night because he said he wanted me to spend more time with him rather than my friends— he probably didn't even mean it that way but yeah I broke things off with him the next morning.

This fic was definitely my escape from reality especially as I wrote all the things I wish I could have done to my ex after we finally broke up— so yes, Gigi throwing him off the balcony was personal.

Healing is very very important and so is talking to the right people about your relationships. People always say "keep your relationships private from everyone" but I definitely think you should have some people to talk about your significant other with. Because fun fact, I didn't know I was getting abused until my best friend told me that everything that he was doing to me was in fact not normal.

Concerning Sachio's feelings for Gigi, there was no build-up because the build-up was never necessary. He's liked her since the first time he saw her, similar to how I've always liked the guy I based Reiji's character in my fic off. He knows I like him but he always tells me how I'm too good for him, so yes, 8+ year-long unrequited love between me and my crush has been shown through Sachio and Gigi in this fanfiction. I think it's up to you readers to decide if you want to believe they got together in the later future or not.

But depressing shit aside, Gigi Miyama is definitely my favourite character written out of all the High&Low fanfictions I have created. I love writing strong female characters and giving them crazy plot armour and making them stronger than the boys because fuck men fr. Also this is my fic so I can do what I want.

Also no, Gigi and Kōhei don't get back together at the end, don't worry about that.

Shoutout to Kpoplover718 for being one of my main motivations to keep writing. I look forward to your comments every time I publish a new chapter. Thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyed my writing.

Anyways, thank you all for reading Trust Fund Baby and making it to the end

—jun