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Loving him

Jiya  POV

He likes me , he likes me , no  not only  likes me , but more than that maybe he loves me!

That was unexpected thing ,I was expecting from him , whatever happened during the party I was already so lost..
I was not regretting any of the thing, happened between us specially the kiss which, I really enjoyed this was my first kiss .. I have been never close to any of the man Rajveer was the first to whom ,I was so comfortable in talking , or  sharing my thoughts..
I was very glad , not only glad, I was on  cloud nine when Rajveer confessed to me that he likes me...
During all this month , I realise that Rajveer is the one with whom ,I wanted to spend my time not only time but I think so,  more than that..
I have already realize that I don't like Rajveer , but I love Rajveer ....   

The only thing that stopping me to confess to Rajveer is my baseless marriage.. I know this marriage  doesn't have any meaning ,but somewhere this is eating me from inside..
The foolish decision, which I have ever taken now I am regretting it .

I don't want Rajveer to have pity  on me.. or associate with me...
But my heart and mind cannot think without him... Whenever he is near me I feel safe and secure..
Sometime,  I think is it possible in such a short period you can get attached to some one... But there is no answer somewhere I have read a second ,or a minute is far enough for you to get attached or to love someone... Sometime whole life you cannot love anyone..
Been with Rajveer will be a lot of obstacle in our relationship people will look at you with such a disgust, that I have a relationship with my brother in law , inspite of getting married to his brother...
Maybe the society will never except our relationship...
All the fingers will be thrown at me that I was the one who betrayed in marriage or did infidelity... No one will blame Aryan for his character or responsible for this imperfect marriage...

Anu had repeated 100 time that, I am not married to that jerk but somewhere I feel fear in myself , what if Aryan , or his family , or my family force me into something which I don't want to do...
My parents are least bother , about my well being... In this past month only my mother had called me for  not asking about my well being but asking to  maintain a  good relationship with my husband and his family.. my mother already informed me that they don't want to come back in India,  they wanted to just settle out over seas...

This was all well planned by my parents, but they never wanted to inform me about the plan now, I clearly understood that I was only the burden for them and how they sold me for their own purpose... All the people around me are very selfish and toxic..

I am not a weak girl , where I wanted to just sit and cry on something .
Now , I have totally learn  how to control my emotion..

When Rajveer left , after confessing everything,  I give it a thought.. for the time being , I also wanted to be selfish, I also wanted to be happy I wanted to have a beautiful relationship with Rajveer...
I wanted to give a  chance to Rajveer.. I don't know till where I can walk with Rajveer, but I definitely wanted him in my life ,I really wanted to enjoy my phase with him ,I  wanted to enter in his life, I know there will be a many obstacle in our relationship but I am ready to face everything with him ,if he is near by me ,or next to me I can face everything...

I wanted to feel the feeling that somebody loves  me , somebody cares for me somebody is there to hold me, embrace me,  kiss me make me feel secure, hide me from this cruel world..

And I am totally ready to enter in the relationship with Rajveer and I am very happy that he also likes me... Not only like may be he,  loves me.. when he will be back from his trip definitely I will also confess him about my feeling how I feel about him....

This whole week I was just finding the chance to confess  my feeling to Rajveer.. during this whole week I was not able to concentrate on anything and during this period also Rajveer didn't contact me ...

Initially I was happy but after sometime, I was feeling very depress that I cannot see him or talk to him .Through Akash, I came to know that this Sunday , he will be back....

I was very much delighted by this news ... It was like I don't want to waste any second , I just want to run to his arm and confess him about my feelings to him...
In all the excitement , I call Anu to ask for some help, and told her about me , and Rajveer confession... she was very delighted  ,and supported me in my decision.. I inform her that Rajveer will be coming tomorrow and how happy , I am and I wanted to tell him everything that, how much I like him  ...Anu  was very happy with my decision that ,I wanted to move forward with Rajveer in this relationship... She believe that Rajveer is the best person for me..

Anu just suggested me that ,I shall  surprise  Rajveer by receiving him from the airport... And can tell about my feeling... I was excited but there was some kind of fear in myself but looking at every aspect of pros and  cons will happen .I decided to go to the airport to surprise Rajveer..

Earling morning I called Akash to inform him that , I will be also going to airport with him to receive him...
First he was very much surprised , that why I wanted to go to the airport... And I was not knowing how much I should tell Akash about all this. ...So  I just made an excuse that I have an important thing to discuss with Rajveer which needs attention as soon as possible... He didn't enquire much  about it!
He informed me that there will be a car to pick me up to reach to the airport...

I was very glad , and excited to reach airport.. I reached airport within 30 minutes and was waiting for him in the car , driver already inform me that plane  have already landed,  and Rajveer will be out at any moment.. Aakash  was not there with me in the car ...But I can see some car was following me which was at a good distance.. they might be for my safety...

Rajveer checked out,  from the airport , I can see him from the far distance as soon as he was coming near by the car my heart was thumping very fast .Now whatever,  excitement I was having all this went in anxiety , what should I say to him when he will be here.. in nervousness , I was just holding my both the hands , and fidgeting with each other.. I just close my eyes tightly after a minute,  I can hear the opening of the door , I can feel somebody has sat  beside me...

"Hi", how are you"! I can hear a manly voice from other side...

Hello , "yes I am fine" I think so, I only whisper slowly..

He chuckled at my response...
Stupid Jiya; internally I mocked myself....
After that ,we didn't exchange any word the drive was very silent,  I open my eyes but I was not having any kind of strength to look at him,  I was just looking outside the window...
I really wanted to start a conversation, but I was not knowing how to do it , I was really, really nervous.. What ever preparation speech,  I prepared it went in hayway... Come on Jiya you can do it. my inner conscious was telling me .. After gathering a lot of strength , I  slowly gazed down bringing my hand forward  to hold his hand , which was on his thigh...

Courageously ,I hold his hand in my hand without looking at him till now ,I was looking  outside... Immediately his hand hold my hand very tightly  to give me the assurance , that he is with me , we both was holding each other hand without,  exchanging any word ... holding his hand and feeling him near by me ,directly brought a beautiful smile on my face .. The drive was very slow comfortable and peaceful till , we reach home....

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