after it all {kokichi angst}

VII

ok wow im back YAY so anyways i got a gf im really happy but i dont know what to do because i keep thinking about things i dont want to anyway im not gonna vent on wattpad thats so cringe

☆third person pov☆

shuichi studied until 8pm, he ate his dinner, changed, brushed his teeth then went to sleep after watching tv. shuichi went to bed at 10pm while kokichi came home at that time, he was greeted at the door by his mom "oh! a friend from school dropped by today, he said you left early, he was just worried dont worry nothing important" she smiled while walking with him to the kitchen, kokichis eyes narrowed in annoyance after she mentioned someone came by, he knew who it was, it was saihara obviously, he groaned then his mom started speaking again "oh! dinners ready, its just pasta, and no i didnt get his name, he had gold eyes and blue ish hair though" she handed him a bowl of pasta and smiled. "dont force yourself to eat. but id rather you attend a whole school day instead of leaving after lunch" she sighed the last sentence with a disappointed look, she gave him a cup of water and left the room, leaving him alone with his thoughts, he took phone out of his pocket and started to text saihara who responded in the morning.

☆texting start here☆

saihara>

10:53pm

hey saihara!! sorry for leaving
school early, im okay i just
needed a break. im sorry for
earlier please dont leave me.

im sorry i dont hate you i think im
going crazy LOL, i hope we can be
friends again!!

6:23am

hey, i wont leave you
you didn't do anything
wrong i understand whats
happening, im here for you
we can hangout soon if
youd like? :), you can call
me shuichi if were friends
by the way.

im glad you're okay and
not hurt, if you think youre
going crazy please get help
though, i cant help with that.

okay!! and you can call me
kokichi, and nooo i dont need to get
help im goin' to kill ur whooole
family bc u said that>:(!! cant believe
u think im psycho😞😞

☆texting stops here☆
☆kokichis pov☆

i chuckled at shuichis response, he always takes things seriously, i dont blame him of course but its funny, though i guess i wasn't entirely joking, i knew something was wrong with me and i couldnt find out, i was having violent thoughts and sleeping problems, but that was beside the point. i looked at the time, 6:30am and i still got no sleep, i sighed and put clothes on and walked to shuichis house, he was awake so i guess he should be okay with me coming over, right? i knocked on the door and was luckily greeted by shuichis face a few minutes later "oh kokichi, hi!" he looked at his phone for the time "its 6:50am, we have 40 minutes until school starts, wanna get coffee?" he smiled, i just nodded silently.

we went to a cafe and ordered some coffee, we talked for a bit, this relieved my anxiety a bit knowing that shuichi was going to stay my friend and hes not angry at me, but the whole time i still felt upset, i dont know why, i dont think i did anything wrong but i didnt feel right, shuichi took notice that i wasnt feeling right and his face just flooded with concern, "hey kokichi, you good? is it too loud?" he asked quietly, i shook my head, "dont worry shuichi! im fine" i smiled brightly, he smiled back and nodded in approval i guess, we talked for a bit more but after i took my last sip i felt my stomach turning, i quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom, shuichi didnt follow me this time, i spent around 8 minutes in there, my stomach had been getting weaker the less i ate, i went back to our table "sorry shuichi!! ive never really been able to drink coffee without doing that" i lied, he smiled "oh! its okay, sorry i shouldve been more considerate", he stood up and we paid and left, we decided to walk to school instead of catching the bus, we just wanted to talk to eachother only but we both knew kaede would want to talk to us, we got to school before the buses got there so we just sat at my bench and talked, i was happy for once in awhile, i didnt feel as anxious, and i felt like sorting my friendship out with shuichi lifted a weight off my shoulders, god i hated that sentence.