after it all {kokichi angst}

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tw vomit, ill put a warning before it:)

☆kokichi pov☆

class was.. uncomfortable, the whole time shuichi was just watching me, i know i was honest with him but i didnt really think it was that big of a deal?? but i guess i couldn't entirely blame him, someone who acts so strong cant eat because theyre worried about weight? yea id be confused with that too. my thoughts were paused by a loud slam on my desk, i looked up to see the teacher "ouma, all my classes youve been spaced out, cant you listen in one class?" the teacher yelled so in response i rolled my eyes "gee, sorry is it really that big of a deal??" i muttered, i wanted him to hear but also didnt, i didnt wanna get in trouble, the teacher groaned and went back to his desk.

finally, the bell rang, i got up and put my things away before i was stopped, i turned around expecting shuichi or miu but it was kaito and maki?? "what the fuck do you want" i said while i glared at maki, though the killing game was over, we still never got along, "maki has something for you!!" kaito said, hes always been joyful and loud, i guess in a way i admire him? "oh? what does the assassin have? does she wanna kill me?" i grinned after saying that, her eyes narrowed, kaito noticed the tension and sighed "no, nothing like that!! cmon we're in a proper school now, no more killing!!"  kaito groaned "now maki, tell him!", maki sighed "im sorry for being so mean to you.." she played with her hair, avoiding eye contact, it was obvious kaito forced her to say that "hm.. not forgiven, because youre wasting my lunch time, begone!!" i shook my hand telling them to go, the two smiled since they understood i was joking, i was shocked at the sight of maki smiling but god theyre annoying.

i decided i was gonna go find rantaro to talk to, i saw him sitting in a giant group of people, hes an introvert but social? it never made sense but he always has a lot of people nearby, i mean yea hes able to get along with anyone, the group had miu, shuichi, kaede, kiibo, kirumi and gonta, and near the group was the trio, himiko, tenko and angie, so i guess this is where they go for free period. kaede was brushing gontas hair and talking to miu, kiibo and kirumi were talking and rantaro was talking to shuichi, i decided to sit in between the two, shuichi saw me and instantly got a look of guilt on his face, he was barely able to keep his conversation with rantaro, i didnt like having him look at me, i started to feel nauseous, then i felt something come up so i ran off to the bathroom.

tw vomit starting here, the 🔴 emoji means its over <3

i was puking in the bathroom before i heard a knock on the stall "yea?" i said, loud enough for someone to hear "ouma are you okay?" of course it was saihara.. "yea im fine, go away" i don't know why but i was being rude to him, he sighed and walked out, i wiped my mouth but stayed in the stall, sitting on the floor, i just wanted to go home, so i did, i got my bag and walked home, luckily i didnt throw up on my way home, i dont even know why i threw up when i was at school, im not the type to throw up when im anxious, shuichi probably is though..

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☆third person pov☆

kokichi had gone home to rest without telling anyone, by the time it was cleaning time shuichi was nervous as fuck, he didnt think kokichi had any other problems other then an eating disorder so he didnt believe he'd harm himself but not seeing him ruined his whole mood.

shuichi and kaito decided to skip cleaning, they used to do it everyday but started doing it less, the school couldnt get THAT messy. "hey umm.. is everything alright with ouma? hes like really quiet and thin." kaito stated, the last part of his sentence being slightly muttered since he put a cigarette in his mouth, "huh? oh yea hes fine, well, maybe he just has a fast metabolism?.." shuichi lied while awkwardly laughing, hoping kaito wouldnt realize what's happening "eh i guess youre right.", the bell rang to say it was home time, so the two started to leave "hey kaito im gonna walk home today", this confused kaito, mainly cuz shuichi never walked home "umm..? okay.. see ya sidekick! its always good to go for a walk atleast once a week!" kaito gave a thumbs up before walking away, shuichi walked 'home' in silence, he wasn't actually going to his home, he was going to kokichis.

kokichi was laying on his bed staring at the ceiling, he felt nauseous and like if he moved he'd just fall to pieces, but his mom walked in to tell him a friend was at the door, so kokichi had to get up either way, kokichi got up, annoyed, and went to get the door, he walked down the stairs slowly so he didnt fall and he opened it, seeing shuichi, "what do you want??" he said, groaning at the end of his sentence "ah.. sorry ouma i just wanted to see if you were okay, you werent at school for cleaning time.." shuichi fidgeted with his fingers to calm himself down "ugh.. im fine okay?! stop worrying its all you do its so annoying!!" kokichi snapped, almost instantly regretting his choice of words "oh um.. sorry ouma.. see you tomorrow??" shuichi asked with an awkward laugh, "yea yea whatever" kokichi said, slamming the door shut, kokichi let out a loud groan before walking up the stairs and going back to his room. shuichi was hurt by kokichis words but also knew he didnt actually mean them which made him feel a bit better about it, he sighed before leaving and going to his 'own house'.

it was his uncles house, shuichis never really liked his uncle, of course he was thankful his uncle wasnt abusive and he fed him properly, but everytime his uncle couldnt solve a case he passed it onto shuichi, which was a lot of stress for a 15 year old, so he couldnt help but be angry at his uncle when that happened, once he walked in the door he was greeted by his uncle, he went to his room and went on his phone to text kokichi.

☆texting here☆

Ouma >

6:28pm

hey ouma, sorry for angering you,
i was just wondering if you are actually
okay.

ouma?

are you okay? please respond.

im sorry.
read

☆texting end here☆

kokichi was reading his texts but not responding, this worried shuichi more then he already was, since usually kokichi would spam him with responses, shuichi sighed and turned off his phone to get himself some food, after he ate he changed, showered and went to sleep.

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