"Please, sit" she asks sitting on the edge of my bed. I slowly move to the seat that's in the corner of the room making sure to keep my eyes on her at all times.
This reminds me of when I would have to walk on eggshells around my parents. If I would take my eyes off of them who knew what they would do. At least if I kept my eyes on them I could foresee what was coming. Prepare myself for it.
"I, I uh, I don't know how to start this..." she lifts her head meeting my eyes but quickly looks away, it's as if she knows she did something wrong.
"Then don't. Leave. Get out!" I practically scream causing her to jump a bit.
Screaming used to scare the crap out of me but after what happened that night. Nothing scares me because I always expect it. Nothings safe anymore. Nothing.
"I can't do that my love. My light." Hearing that makes me angry
"You think that you can just come back, call me a few pet names and expect me to want to forgive you after all that you've done?!" I say standing up and moving towards the window
"Baby please, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do any of it! You just really pissed my wolf off! It was out of my control!"
"Bullshit!! Incase you're forgetting, I also have a wolf and I know damn well that you can control her if you wanted to! And by the way, I don't appreciate that fact that your trying to make this my fault! As if Im the one that goes you up and fucking WHIPPED you!!! These scars are never going away!! No matter what I do, every time I look at my body it reminds of the look you had in your eye that night! Of the feeling when you were holding back my mate from helping me, of the feeling of that leather whip breaking my skin and of the feeling of betrayal I felt that night!" I yell my finger poking her chest for emphasis
"Ok and I understand that,
"Bitch, don't talk down to me. I will never forgive you! Do you hear me?!? NEVER!!!" She in turn stands up and gently pushes my hand away.
"Baby, it's not just you and I that's being effected here, there's the packs, there's Rose, theres our families honours."
"You mean your families honours, your packs and your mate? All of these things seem to have one thing in common alpha, they all are about you." I spit the word alpha making her angry.
"You know what fine, stay in this lonely cabin in the middle of the fucking woods. Don't come back, makes it easier for me! Might as well reject Rose and I while your at it!"
"GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE!!!" That's when I hear the front door slam open. I hear heavy feet walking quickly towards us.
"What's wrong Am- oh"
"Get out Natalie. Just get out." I say defeatedly while laying down on my bed.
"This isn't over"
"I wouldn't expect it to be."
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A while after Natalie left and I cried into Lexi's shirt, I'm now on my way to meet up with Rose. It's about time we actually talk about what to do. We need to stop avoiding the subject.
I walk into the dinner and sit down in the corner booth. I pull out my phone to see if Rose has texted, which she hasn't and not I'm going into Wattpad because I have nothing better to do with my life.
I hear the door chime causing me to look u. There I see one of the most beautiful women in my life, Rose.
"Hey" she says sitting down in front of me
"Hey" I reply awkwardly
"So..."
"Oh Um, I don't know if you know but Natalie paid me a visit today?" Rose looks pissed but nods anyway
"Look Rosalie, I need to know what you want? Obviously I can't get back with Natalie but like do you want to keep doing this?" Rose looks confused but then realization crosses her face.
"I want everything to go back to the way it was which obviously can't happen like you said but I also don't want to continue like this Amber. I don't think I can." I nod accepting this, I has prepared myself for this although it doesn't make things easier.
"Ok then, now do you want just to stay separate or rejection?" I can see the hurt in her eyes
"Not rejection!" A voice interrupts before Rose can answer. I look over and see Natalie standing there looking sweaty and out of breath.
"You're the one who suggested this!" She holds her hands up in defence and slowly walks over. She sits down beside Rose after making sure I was ok with it.
"I went and spoke with an elder. I told her what's been happening and she said that this could be due to us not being mates but Rosalie and I being mated. She said that my wolf is extremely aggressive,
Irritable, and jealous. That's why I haven't been able to control my wolf."
"What are you saying?" Rose asked
"Well now that we've confirmed that it's not my fault, we can go back home!" Natalie looks so excited but I don't think she understands the damages that this has caused.
"Natalie, you don't understand, I can't trust you again. I can't go into that room without seeing what has happened. I can't look in your eyes and see my mate. All I see is the person that hurt me. The person who held back my other mate from helping me! I can't, I can't, no" I get up and leave the restaurant despite their protests.
I can't in good conscience forgive her. I can't because condition or not she still did it and I'm done with forgiving things I shouldn't.
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You weren't just a star to me. You were my whole damn sky.
RomanceAmber is a normal typical girl to everyone on the outside but in secret and in her family life... let's just say it's not the nicest. Her family and pack being VERY homophobic, she has to hide her true self or she gets bullied and beaten. ...
