ROGUE🖤 (Cole x OC! Lavellan) ✓ [COMPLETED]

Ch. 19 *What is This Feeling?*❣️

NALIA
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I lead Cole up to my quarters. With the door shut behind me, I approach him. He stands in front of my bed, his hat hiding his face.

"Cullen explained to me what you said to him earlier," I cross my arms. "Do you deny it?"

"No," Cole answers, still refusing to meet my eyes. He doesn't say anything else, so I sigh loudly. "Why would you say things like that?" I ask.

He shakes his head softly, muttering to himself under his breath. "Sweaty hands, heart beating out of chest, she's so close yet so far, too scared to reach out..."

"What are you talking about Cole?" I ask impatiently, suddenly, he snaps his head upwards to stare into my eyes.

"I don't understand what's happening to me!" He shouts before looking around frantically, acting the same way he did in the Fade.
"I-I- I'm feeling so many things at once it hurts! I can't look at you the same anymore! Every time I see you with someone else I feel this burn in my heart. Why do I find myself thinking about you more then I used to? Why do I keep replaying the memory of the kiss over and over like a favorite song?" He stops, breathing heavily, before whispering, "why don't you see me like you see the others?"

My eyes widen.

He slams himself on my bed, hiding his face in his hands. He won't look at me, he's hiding away in his palms, hoping it's enough.
I kneel down in front of him, taking his hands into mine. "I do see you, Cole. More then you know."

"Then why..." He trails off, "why does it make me angry? I shouldn't say things to him that'll hurt him. I don't hurt people, I help them." He looks at me. "Nalia...what is this feeling?"

I smile softly, squeezing his hand. For so long, I believed that he would never feel the same way that I do for him. But hearing everything he just said now, it felt like a weight was just lifted off my heart and I can breathe again.

He's in love with me, and I'm in love with him.

"Love, Cole. It's love..."

His eyes widen slightly. "I..." He trails off, "How?"

I get up to sit beside him, my hip bumping into his. "Love works in mysterious ways. It can come into your life, help you, save you, or hurt you. It could be in any form. A friend, a family member, even a pet. It just happens, it snaps into place usually at first glance, but most times it takes a while to know it."

Its what happened to me. I didn't realize until just now but, I think I fell in love with Cole the first moment I saw him, when he was this figure in my mind, helping me escape Envy.

I touch his shoulder. "I didn't think you'd discover love this quickly though," I giggle behind my hand. I'm happy that he did though, very happy.

He stares at the ground. "Could you love a thing like me, Nalia?" He whispers so softly I have to strain to hear.

I cup his face in my hands, bringing it up so that our eyes meet. "You aren't a thing. You are a human being, and to answer your question," I smile, letting my forehead touch his. "I already love you. I've loved you for a long time..."

He smiles a little, lifting a shaky hand to touch my cheek.

Slowly I lean in and kiss him. A very soft, faint, touch to the lips. Scared that he might run away again. But he doesn't.
His hand snakes around my neck, pulling me closer. Our mouths open and close in perfect sync, and the entire world around us disappears.

His lips are soft and taste faintly of honey.
Fireworks explode in my stomach from how amazing this feels...I only hope it's like that for him too.

When we pull away, we let our foreheads touch and our hands hold each other.

"That was..." He trails off, thinking of a word to help him finish his sentence.
"Good, or bad?" I ask softly, grinning from ear to ear like a complete idiot.
He smiles. "Good," he whispers, kissing me one last time.

It's been half a year since Cole joined the Inquisition. Half a year, we've been together.
We started off as strangers, soon to become friends, and it stayed like that for a while.
Until now.

My love for him was like a seed. Meeting him for the first time planted that seed, learning more about him watered it, and becoming his lover just made it blossomed.

I lean into his side, resting my head on his shoulder in complete silence for the rest of the day...
There will be talk, of course. I'll probably hear a lot of shock from my advisors and a few of my friends, but I don't care.
With him by my side now, I feel like I can overcome anything.