Unwavering devotion [Complete, 18+]

CHAPTER 11: RUN

PEOPLE CAME IN THROUGHOUT THE DAY ASKING QUESTION AFTER QUESTION to which I answered vaguely, not giving them the information that they wanted. As the day droned on, I appeased myself with picturing my mate as she had repeatedly moaned my name. It was the best moment of my life, knowing that I made my mate that happy and I once again grinned, breathing in her heady scent that hadn't fully disappeared due to her thong which I had entwined around my fingers. I quickly hid it every time someone came to check on me, not wanting any harm to come to my mate if they made the connection and discovered whose they belonged. 

Derrick came to visit me briefly but it was a short visit and I don't think I was the best of company since I kept on drifting off and reliving the delicious moments I had shared with Belle. Some part of me felt bad when he left but I knew I would make it up to him when my mind was less occupied. 

I was thankful that Carol hardly came into the room and when she did she didn't touch me. I wouldn't have let her if she had tried but at least she had restrained herself to only the lingering looks she gave, showing that she still wasn't over her desire for me. She didn't change and no matter what I tried I couldn't get her to stop. 

As the sun sank below the horizon and it grew closer to when she arrived I listened to the clock outside, each tick seeming louder than the last. I clutched at her scent filled thong tighter as I worried what her mind had taken her when she was gone from my grasp. It plagued me to think that she might regret what we did and I think it would kill me if she pretended it didn't happen. Though unable to sleep, with eyes closed I day dreamed of moments of reunion that always ended up with me jerking my eyes open unable to bare her avoiding my gaze. 

At long last she arrived at the clinic and after discussing the cases left for her, the majority of the staff left. I fidgeted, the sheet clinging horribly to my wet skin, as I tried to think of valid reasons why she didn't want to come in and see me. I listened to her erratic heart as she prattled around in reception finishing off the tasks Carol was obviously too lazy to accomplish. I'd just about convinced myself that she was just waiting until the cleaner left and then she would come but as he too left and she didn't stop, my hopes were slowly splintering. She regretted it! I punched the mattress in frustration the ache in my arm feeling all so pleasant against the numbness that was spreading from my heart. She didn't want me! 

Who would? I asked myself feeling miserable and bursting with self-loathing at the fact that to her I was just some convict, not worthy of her heart. I didn't regret saving my sister and I never would but I don't know what I would do if I couldn't have my beautiful mate. 

I reached out for the call button too weak to stop myself as I needed to see her again, to at least know for certain what she wanted. I paused as my thumb felt the ridges of the button; deliberating whether knowing was going to better or worse. After all I didn't want my call to be the only reason why she wanted to be in the same room as me, I wouldn't want to make her do anything she didn't want even if that meant seeing me. I bit my lip as my eyes became glossy at the thought, refusing to let the liquid accumulating run down my cheeks. 

Her footsteps had me spinning around to face the door whilst rapidly blinking away the tears not wanting to appear weak in front of her. The door slowly spun open and as I met her timid eyes she stumbled briefly, cheeks flaring red adorably. Her warm eyes, although slightly unsure weren't cold and my smile widened as hers grew in response. She seemed hesitant though so I opened my arms and allowed her to decide: a decision that would make or break my heart. The seconds seemed to tick by so slowly as she deliberated. 

"Please Bella," I whispered softly but loud enough so that her weak human ears could hear. 

As I said her name I noticed something when something changed in her eyes that I could stare into all day. The next thing I knew she was running towards me before jumping into my waiting arms. I pulled her closer, rubbing gently on her back as her arms wrapped around my neck pulled me closer into her. She mumbled something against my neck but I couldn't quite work it out.