Darkness at the Heart of My Love || Wenclair

Chapter 34: I have lost everything

TW: Major Character Death, Plot Twist, The End?... A note at the end.

"My little Raven..." My mother says in a worried, sad, yet emotionless tone. "You should not be out of your hospital bed." She says slightly harshly. I glare at her before pushing past her, the doctors and nurses gasping as if they are watching a corpse walk down the hall. Which is slightly true. I do feel more dead than usual, but this feeling inside me, the feeling of guilt and sadness, has given me enough strength to look for Enid. She just has to be okay. My Enid has to be okay.

As I make my way down the hall, I can hear Yoko's horrid sobbing and I immediately make my way to that room, not hesitating as I swing the door open to find Enid in a hospital bed, Yoko crying, Divina trying to comfort her, and a doctor who has just lost any and all color in his face.

"What is wrong with her?" I demand through gritted teeth. I watch as Yoko wipes her eyes before she starts sobbing again.

"You are?..." The doctor says while trying not to sound scared. "Enid's partner. Now tell me what is wrong be-" I cut myself off, knowing if I make a threat, I will be separated from Enid once more and I refuse to allow that to happen. Thankfully, I was able to convincingly play it off as a cough.

"Enid is in poor condition. There isn't anything more we can do.  I'm sorry." He says quietly as he exits the room. I turn my attention back to Enid. I sit down next to her and take her hand in mine. Divina escorts Yoko out of the room and closes the door. I think they got the silent message.

I do nothing but hold her hand, seeing her like this hurts me and it's all my fault. I remember the times we spent together, her playing the violin, her beautiful dress the night I asked to court her, her smile, those ocean blue eyes... I already miss her. I hold her cold hand to my lips and kiss her knuckles softly. I know what I have to do... But I don't know if I'm quite ready for it... After a few minutes, I finally say those dreaded words. "I'm sorry love... I'm sorry... You can move on, Enid, if you need too... I promise it's okay."

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Enid's POV

"I'm so sorry Wednesday..." I say to her has I stand above her casket, tears falling down my face. I feel Yoko's and Divina's presence behind me but I refuse to let her go. I made her a promise... A promise I would never let anyone hurt her... And I failed.

Little did I know, when she pulled away from Nevermore after the semester ended, that it would be the last time I ever saw her. The last time I would hear her monotone voice, see her crooked, meschevious smile. She got into a car accident, but it was more of a murder or assassination than a car accident. A little fender bender that caused her to get injected with Nightshade. Her parents say it might have been a stalker, after finding images of her and death threats on her phone.

I was at Nevermore when the news came across my feed. I wasn't able to go home for the break because of my parents for disowning me and outcasted me from the pack. I asked her to come get me, we spoke on the phone and she agreed to let me come stay with her. She wasn't far from Nevermore and she was sent to the local hospital. I ran down there as fast as I could but she was in a coma. The Nightshade didn't kill her immediately, it must be an Addams thing. I sat by her side for a week before she finally succumbed to the Nightshade poisoning.

No one believes me, but I heard her mumbling and whimpering sometimes, as if she was having a nightmare while she was in the coma. I swear a couple times she said "i love you" but I could have dreamt that during my few power naps I took.

There were so many things I wish I could have said to her. So many things I wanted to do with her. Ask her out, go on dates, get married... I even thought about my new name with her. "Enid S. Addams" I hate Sinclair and didn't want to hyphenate it, so I just left it as 'S'. I would talk to her about the things I wanted to say or do. How I wished we could have spent the break together, had a date in the cemetery she always talks about with cute fairy lights and black roses. I also finished the song I was writing for her, while I was with her at the hospital. "A Song, Only for a Lover." With permission from the hospital, I played it for her and I cried. It was a beautiful piece and it was made for her. I don't know if she could hear it, but I swear I could see just a faint smile creep onto her face. I held out hope. I hoped she would wake up, she would come back to me and I could tell her everything I wanted to say. But that day never came. Eventually a doctor came in and told me there was nothing more they could do. Yoko and Divina were trying to comfort me but Yoko was crying too... Later that night, as I was holding her hand... I said I was sorry and I told her not to hold on for me if she was ready to go. A few minutes later, she passed.

Even standing over her body now, she's in a beautiful black dress, holding a bouquet of black flowers, and she still looks as amazing as the first day she walked into my dorm. As beautiful as she did at the Raven. And just as beautiful as the night we shared our hug after the fight with the Hyde. That night, I made a promise to myself that I would always protect her to the best of my abilities. But I wasn't able too.

I do blame myself. Maybe if I didn't ask her to come back or if I would've asked her to go with her before she left, I might have been able to protect her... But I didn't... I feel myself sobbing, but I can't move or look away from her. I don't want to believe she is actually gone.

It isn't until Yoko and Divina have to help me away, do I start to realize this isn't some sick prank she's playing on me. As the casket is lowered into her grave in the Addams family cemetery, I realize that I have lost everything. The person who helped me be myself, stand up for myself, the person who was the reason I wolfed out, the person who I loved... A werewolf usually mates for life. But now I am alone. I am afraid of being alone...

- A week later -

I sit in front of Wednesday's grave once again. Morticia and Gomez have given me a spare bedroom to stay in but most nights I lay in Wednesday's room. I don't dare touch her stuff, I know she would come back from the dead to kill me. Honestly... Wouldn't hate that... But her scent and her old stuff and the knives and torture equipment and everything there just reminds me of our time together at Nevermore and it reminds me of her... It's all that's left of Wednesday. I haven't gone back to Nevermore. I have been teaching myself with the extensive book collection in the Addams' library but I barely do that anymore. I spend a lot of time sitting with Wednesday, at her grave, even though she probably hates it. And I enjoy playing the same melody I wrote in the music hall. Sometimes it feels as if she's almost there with me, playing along with me with her cello or just listening.

Morticia says that it's only a few more months until the family reunion. She tries to keep my spirits up for that, since Wednesday should be in attendance, as a ghost though... It won't be the same. But I can't help but spend my time with her here and now. If she does come, I know I won't hear the end of "You have been disturbing my eternal slumber every day, stop it." or "Even in death I can't escape you." Those thoughts make me laugh a little. But I can hear Morticia, Gomez, and Pugsley cry when I'm not around. I think they try to hold it together for me, but I cry when they aren't around. I can't even imagine how they feel.

I can just hear Wednesday asking "Why are you crying?" in the same tone as the night on the balcony. I can't help but cry more at the memories. As more tears fall, I finally try to pull myself together for the day. "I'm sorry love. I'm sorry..." I say quietly, before placing yet another black rose on her stone and walking back into the house.

The End?...

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Does Enid end up alone? Is Wednesday actually dead? Or does Wednesday even show up to the family reunion? Or even worse, is this how it truly ends?

Endless cliffhanger or more to come? I haven't decided! Sorry not sorry for this!