Darkness at the Heart of My Love || Wenclair

Chapter 35: The Sun Without Her Moon

"It has been weeks since your passing, Wednesday. Not a single day goes by that I don't think about you. You were everything to me and it took losing you to realize that. I know that sounds cliché, bit it's true. I never was in love with Ajax, I was just ignoring my feelings for you because I thought I had absolutely no chance with you. Everyday I wish I could make myself ask you to stay at the dorm with me or for me to come with you. You didn't deserve to die... I never got to tell you I loved you, how much you meant to me... I miss you Wens. I really do. I know you're probably yelling at me to leave you alone by now... Twice a day every day for 4 weeks probably takes a lot out of you. But I just... don't know what to do now..." I say softly, sitting at her grave, a few tears falling.

"Enid." I hear a soft voice behind me and immediately recognize it as Yoko's. "Enid you have to come inside and eat. Morticia and Gomez are worried about you. Both said you haven't ate much since the incident." Her voice is soft but stern. School started back up a few days ago. I've been ignoring everyone's messages. "I'm okay Yoko. Just... leave me be...please?" I say through tears. "Enid, please, at least consider it?" She says as she sits down next to me but I avoid her gaze.

Yoko's not wrong... I have been avoiding the Addams' for weeks. Morticia and Pugsley try to talk to me but I keep my door locked, and I take long ways around the house to avoid seeing them. I can't help but feel like this is my fault somehow. I eat whatever left overs are in the kitchen after everyone else goes to sleep. I guess they finally asked Yoko to try and come talk to me.

"Enid. I'm worried about you. Morticia, Gomez and Pugsley are worried about you. They need you just as much as you need them. Everyone at Nevermore is worried about you. We all miss Wednesday, but you have to try and move on a little... Please? For me?" Yoko asks, her voice cracking slightly, making me sob. I want to move on but I can't... I can't....

Eventually, I nod a little, wiping my eyes. I stand up and Yoko follows my lead. But I remain silent, wanting nothing more than just to run off and be alone, but Yoko must have anticipated my ideas because now she has a tight grip on my shoulder, but passing it off as a comforting gesture. As I walk inside, I quickly break free from Yoko's grasp and head to my room and I slam the door, locking it. I ignored Yoko trying to reason with while trying to follow me but thankfully, being a werewolf, I'm much faster than her.

Tonight is the Addams' Family Reunion. The big event Morticia has been talking about where all the family, apparently dead or alive, come to party once a year with the rest of the family. I've heard Morticia and Gomez talking about Wednesday showing up and that "Enid will finally see her again."  I hate those words. Yes, I'm excited to see her again... but she'll be gone again until another year passes. I don't think I can handle only seeing her once a year... 

After a few hours of  being deep in thought, the bells ringing 5 o'clock snaps be back to reality. I curl up, knowing the festivities are about to start, I can already hear a lot of people downstairs, many saying hello to fellow family members they haven't seen in forever. I decide to crawl in to bed. But as I am getting ready to crawl into it, I see a letter. A familiar wax seal is on it. I feel myself tear up and I decide not to read it. At least not right now. I can't even begin to imagine what's written in it... I set it in a drawer in my nightstand and I crawl into bed. I know Yoko will be at my door any minute to get me to come down. But I'll refuse... I can't go down there. Even if Wednesday does show, I don't think I could handle it. I curl up in bed and bury my nose into Wednesday's jacket. The scent of old books and ink flooding my nose, helping me fall asleep quickly.

Yoko's POV

I sigh as I hear Enid slamming her door, the lock clicking in place. I know all this is a struggle for her but I hate seeing her like this. I feel a comforting arm around me as I hear Morticia start to speak.

"She's really taking this hard. I know Wednesday was her roommate, but as far as I was aware, Wednesday didn't care for her that much. But it seems she cares a whole lot. Do you happen to know why?" Her voice is sad but trying to sound comforting and calm. I give a slight nod. I know exactly why, but I know it's not my place to tell. "May I ask?" She says softly. I let out the breath I was holding. "It... It's not my place to tell Mrs. Addams." I say truthfully. She just nods and lets go of me. "Yoko, while you're here, would you help us set up for the family reunion tonight? We should have... a new but familiar guest this year." I can here her tone shift to an even sadder one. I can't imagine losing your daughter, but knowing Wednesday, she is probably ecstatic about it. "Of course Mrs. Addams. Anything for allowing Enid to stay here." I say as I follow her to help set up.

After helping Gomez and Morticia reorganize the living room and the dining room, everyone heads to get dressed. Apparently Lurch and Thing are on food duty and guests will be arriving shortly and I head upstairs toward the guest bedroom where Enid is. As I approach the door, I hear nothing but silence. I'm about to knock on the door but I stop myself. Enid needs her time, rushing her will only make things worse. I turn away and head back downstairs. I know guests will be arriving and I decide to get to come down later.

As the bell rings 5 o'clock and the guests are making their way inside, I glance at Morticia, Gomez, and Pugsley. We are all awaiting a certain guest to arrive, my nerves are shot. If Wednesday doesn't show, Enid is going to even be more upset. I help the Addams' greet the rest of the family, many immediately showing their sympathy for Wednesday's passing, others asking how Enid is doing. I feel bad she is couped up in the room, but I know I can't rush her. As the final guests start to arrive, we all move throughout the house. I am greeted to a man named Uncle Fester as well as cousin It. I am starting to understand why Wednesday is the way she is. Or... Was... 

But I haven't seen or heard of Wednesday's appearance, some of the family are going out to the cemetery to see where she's buried. All of the family is nice, unfortunately, I haven't met any fellow vampires, but there is the Addams family werewolf pack who have been asking about Enid non-stop. I sigh and decide to go get Enid. She can't sit up there all night, and there are people that want to meet her. But as I make my way up the stairs, I am stopped in my tracks when I see a familiar figure standing at Enid's door. My entire being tenses and my blood runs cold.

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As you can tell, I decided not to end it. More chapters to come!