Two Worlds Distanced

Chapter 110

EZRA

As I watch Rachel screaming her lungs out, I take a few steps back away from her. Her screams are because of me, everything bad happened to me is because of me, I'm a bomb who destroyed her life along with destroying every strength she had left. I stare at the ice pack on her cheek and all I want to do is comfort her and tell her that everything will be okay.

I can't do that with Alex stepping in front of me to avoid Rachel shoving her knees closer to her chest and rocking back and forth, "Is everything alright here?" and security guards ask as they walk over us, looking at Rachel then at me.

"Get this man away from me!" she screams out and starts coughing from all of the screaming I caused, "Do either of you men know this woman? If so, should I adjust to going to the waiting room?" he tells us while rubbing his clammy hands together to warm him up from the freezing air. I thought hospitals were supposed to save people, not kill them with the cold air. "I don't care," I say to Alex, push him off of me.

I walk over towards Rachel, she looks so hopeless and helpless. The last time I saw her like this was when she told me about her family. I never thought within three months of knowing her, I would be more in love with her in every second of breathing. I have never been with a girl that I would be more in love with, "Ezra, walk away. Take a walk and get some coffee," he tells me like he really thinks I'm going to get some coffee and pretend nothing is happening, "You're right," I look over at Rachel, lying on the hospital bed and crawling up like a ball.

"Yeah. I'm only going to the bathroom if that's alright?" I snap, looking at him going to Rachel and her doctor I suppose. I can't be here, I need to leave.

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I step into my car, close the door so hard it begins to shake and pound onto the wheel in frustration, "AHHHH!" I yell out, and see people in front of my car giving me a weird look. I stick out both of my middle fingers and they run away very quickly. I feel like I'm some monster trying to destroy the town.

I'm a monster who destroyed a good girl's heart like Rachel. I need to get out here.

A while later, it's starting to get pitch black that you can't see shit to my thoughts and get more ability of wanting to drink; you would've thought because my drinking caused Rachel to get in a car and get in an accident. I would stop drinking but pouring whiskey into my body is like it's oxygen.

I pull into a parking spot in front of a mall where there's thousands of cars left and right due to bullshit holidays. Sometimes I forget about the holidays because all they do is remind me of Skyla and what I lost. Yet I have promised my mother that I will come to the Christmas Eve party tomorrow and be on my best behavior. Last year, my mother had to call a cab. I had one too many drinks to annoy the nauseating and meaningless conversations.

I open up the notes app to list of the people I need to get for like my mother, Jasper even though he's not going to be my real father next week will be the wedding; I have to get Alex a gift, I might get duct tape to keep his mouth and a personality since he's always bugging into mine; along the secret Santa bullshit the party always does.

Lastly, I wrote down Rachel's name on the list. I need to get a present for her but I know the present won't change her mind about me.