My idol's daughter / CL16

2022 Bahrain Grand Prix: The race

Race day, jesus.

 How would you feel if, let's say, you have the most known last name in the racing world, you are the first woman to compete a full weekend with a 2 year contract, and you were scared out of your mind? That's where I am right now. 

In my diver room. 

15 minutes before the race. 

Having a panic attack. 

"Hun I need you to breathe" Alexis said as I was hyperventilating with tears dripping out of my eyes. 

"What the fuck do you think I'm trying to do Alexis?!" I screamed in frustration to her face. I could barely get air into my lungs and I needed to be downstairs now, like right now. 

Ilmari was knocking on the door like crazy and that was getting me even more stressed. 

"Lena, we need you in the garage now!" She said while knocking the door roughly. "I am trying to calm her Ilmari and you are not fucking helping!" Alexis screamed at her. 

"Get her parents or Sebastian or the people closest to her in our ratio" Alexis said while I slid down the wall. I was sobbing my eyes out while trying to claw my nails into my forearms, pretty unsuccessfully because Alexis was there. 

"OK hun, someone is coming to help you ok" she said while putting a strand of my blond hair behind my ear. I heard the door open but I was just looking at the floor. "What's wrong?" I heard my mom ask. 

"She's having a panic attack, I think. But they need her downstairs for the race" Alexis said, standing up while I looked up to see my parents, Mick and Sebastian. 

"Mutti" I whimpered and she hugged me tightly. "I don't want to race anymore" I told her quietly and she kept hugging me. 

"Follow my breathing ok?" She said and I followed her and I was calmed almost immediately. When I finally got my breathing back I just looked my mother in the eyes. 

"I can't race Ma" I said with a few tears still coming out of my eyes and she just smiled at me. 

"Yes you can" She said and joined our foreheads together. "No I can't" I said standing up and looking at my family. 

"I'm gonna leave you guys alone but you have 5 minutes" She said and left the room. "Why do you say you can't do it kleine?" My dad said and I huffed. 

"I'm 20 years old! I'm a Schumacher girl! I am a girl that probably just got into racing to be a joke for everyone! I mean look at mick! He's so much better than me and he still has not gotten points" I said pointing at Mick knowing it was wrong but it was true. 

"That's because I have a shitty car" Mick added, smiling.

 "What if I have a shit car too! My teammate was in Mercedes for like 5 years. I'm so much worse than him!" I screamed at them and my dad grabbed me by the arms. 

"Stop it. You are an amazing driver and you did not get here only for your last name and that is final! You won formula 2 and Formula 3 for god's sake. You deserve this seat, so go to your car and kick some men's ass" He said and I smiled and hugged him immediately.

 "I love you liebe, we are all here for you and we love you" he said into my hair. At least I was already changed into my suit so now the only thing left was to go out into the garage. "Ok I'm leaving" I said, kissing my parents goodbye while mick and seb and I ran out. 

When I got down the stairs I saw Ilmari physically breathe before handing me my things and calling everyone to get ready. We went out to the track and I parked into the 15th spot and got out of the car.