Queen of the Cold Castle

Chapter Eight:

I slowly opened my eyes, as my memories fully returned to me. I was in an unfamiliar surrounding but what was even weirder was that I felt someone arms tightly wrapped against my waist with their legs intertwined with mine. As I explored the room, I realised it was the dean's, I had seen bits and pieces through the door but never had been inside. It didn't have many personal items but that was to be expected from Lesso, she had a large desk in the corner along with shelves full of books she seemed to like to read. She also had a balcony and two doors that you assumed led to a walk in wardrobe and the bathroom, the room itself was basic and consisted of mostly black and red. She of course had a large queen size bed with soft silk black sheets which I was currently in.  I slowly turned my body round, gazing at the beautiful sight that lay next to me, her red curls were in a gorgeous mess around the pillow and her freckles were now visible due to the fact she wasn't wearing any makeup which you had never seen before but she only looked more perfect.  However through her beauty you could tell she was tired, her eyes had large black circles from exhaustion or lack of sleep, guilt started to fill your head thinking you may have been the cause. Suddenly her eyes began to open, she blinked adjusting to the light, her eyes began to widen "Your awake. Thank the gods." she practically shouted. "Ow. That was a little loud" I replied slowly moving further away, I loved being with Lesso but at the same time nothing had happened between us nor had they discussed anything. 

"Sorry my love, I didn't mean to shout" she responded in a calm soft tone. "Please don't call me my love, Rafal calls me that. I'd rather not think of him when i'm in your arms" you gave a soft chuckle at the last sentence, Lesso merely gave a soft but sad smile not wanting to press. "How long have I been asleep?" I asked thinking it must of only been a few hours, "About two days straight" Lesso whispered, my eyes widen in shock "I Didn't know what happened to you, I still don't. I just hoped resting would make you wake up. Y/n.... You scared the shit out of me." Lesso whispered pulling me even closer, resting her head on crook of my neck breathing in my scent. 

"I-- I'm sorry I put you in that position red" I whisper in response matching her volume, "I had no idea what was happening, for days Rafal had been shouting at me inside my head, suddenly he starting mixing it with a pain I can't even explain. It was unbearable. So I went to the person I thought would help me, the person who I L- feel safest with" I explained catching myself at the end. "Why was he inside your head?" she questioned looking me in the eyes, "He's been inside my head since my first day" Lesso eyes widen in shock mixed with a tint of anger. "I'm sorry Lesso, I first thought I was going crazy then he revealed himself in my dreams telling me to kill the beast that killed my mother. He was always there when I close my eyes, that's when I started using magic when I was asleep which you know about. So he said he would train me, after my sessions with you I would go to him. However after that time you and me had in the School for Good he got so angry and accused me of letting evil down. I was a disappointment in his eyes and I didn't want to disappoint you Leonora, you mean a lot to me. I want to make you proud, my only thoughts are about you" Lesso just nodded as she processed all the information that was explained "I'm sorry Leonora, I never meant to disappoint you. I hate him. He murdered my mother because I made her soft. He threatened to kill you" I explained while tears ran down my face, my eyes were everywhere refusing to look at Lesso, scared of what she was going to say or do. Would she scream at me? Throw me out her room? 

I felt her surprisedly warm finger grip my chin and force my eyes to look into hers, "My baby girl, you have not disappointed me, you never will. I am proud of you. No matter what you do I will be proud. Rafal is twisted, he -- he abused me, physically, sexually and verbally when I spent my time here. I loved him or I thought I did but I know better now. We can get through this, you will always have me" Lesso reassured me wrapping her arms around me as I continued to cry. "I'm sorry you had to endure him." I sobbed thinking of the horrible things he had done to the one I love. There we remained for hours simply in each other's arms, in comfortable silence.