Hard to Love part 2

Fighting

Wanda had read that, and Natasha got upstairs and bathed herself and lied down in bed and reading her book. When after a while Steve came up too, he got to the bathroom and was throwing away something in the garage and saw the test that was positive. So, he took it out and looked at it and then was going out and said: Tasha, why didn't you tell me you're pregnant? Nat just looked up and said after a while: Because you never left me on that mission. I would have to stay here and be safe. Yes, but also, I would be happy for us and support you with it and see you happy again. Said Steve that was standing in their room and was looking at her. He then added: Just because of that you didn't tell me or was it something else? Nat was looking at him and then said by putting the book away she was reading: After I got on the mission, I wanted to tell you, but there was so much going on. The last day when you were the whole time with Bucky and... And what Natasha? Was I to stupid enough to see it or what is going on with you right now? Asked Steve madly and Nat looked up at him and said: It was after that night and the morning sex we had, and I wanted to tell you even then, but you were gone. So, I got down to you and just I heard that crap. So, I played my role. So, you decided to go on it and bring you and the baby in danger and when even we have a second miscarriage then tell me that you were pregnant. What this the plane? Meant Steve so angry and almost yelling and Nat just said softly and almost crying: No, I taught I don't have a miscarriage again. I knew how dangerous it could be, but it wasn't. ... she wanted to say something more, but Steve interrupted her by yelling: Okay, so you know the risks, but still didn't tell me. I taught after marring you I have enough trust. So, you can tell me everything even if is not the right timing. I taught you trusted me the most and will tell even the deepest detail of your soul to me. But, I was wrong about it. You still don't trust me or am I wrong? She couldn't answer because she was already crying and instead of hugging her and cheering her up he took his stuff and got out. He got to Bucky's room and knocked but didn't get any answer, so he got to Sam and knocked there and got and answer: Come on in.

So, he got inside and said: Hey Sam can I sleep today at your room? Yeah, why? Okay what happed with Natasha? Asked Sam and he looked at him and said: Well, she is pregnant and didn't tell me. We had a fight and now I can't look at her. Okay. ... You can stay, but at the couch okay. Said Sam and Steve said: Thank you for it. Said Steve and got to the bathroom and was making himself ready for sleep. And then lied on the couch and fell asleep. Meanwhile when he got out Natasha lied back in her pillow and was crying herself alone to sleep. She woke up at 2 am and was again crying and got up to get water and then got back to her room and just had the idea that she will fly back home. But before that she tried to get back to sleep but, couldn't, so she started to pack her stuff. She was packing and was humming a song she just couldn't remember the lyrics to and when she was done, she dressed herself and got downstairs and was making some food and while she was making it, she writes a letter to Steve. She stared like this: Dear, Steve. I know it was a surprise for you with the baby, so I decided that since you didn't like the idea of it, I would raise it alone. Far away from you and the others. Of course, you can visit if you like but, I doubt that you would. It will be in a much safer place where just one person can love her so much for all of you. I'm so sorry for that happed but, I hope you forgive me for my mistake that we accidentally did. I will everyday tell the kid that her or his dad died before they were born, and I just had friends that helped me through all that. If you want to change it text me and we can discuss it that way if you like. You probably wondering where I am, but that I will not tell just a hint it's where I belong. Everything is safe sound and will be checked from few people that are good. Your Natasha. P.S Tell Lena that I love her and Clint that I will miss him. And Furry that I quit.

So, when the food was done, she ate it then washed it and put it back. Then she got to her room and took her bag and took of her rings and put it on the table with the letter. After that she drove to the airport with a Taxi and got on the earliest plane to Moscow. She flew long and when she got there, she was driving with a Taxi to her apartment and it was quite early, so she lied on her bed and was sleeping a bit. Meanwhile Steve got in their room and wanted to apologize to Nat, but instead found the letter and the rings on the table. So, he took the letter and read it, while reading he realized what he had done and was going to the garage and took her motorcycle and drove to the airport and flew with the plane to Moscow. Because that was the first place he taught of and when he was there, he drove with the Taxi to her apartment. Natasha had woken up and was eating one food after throwing up again. She then took her keys and drove to the grocery store we're she was doing a long shopping list. Then next thing she did was going back to the apartment and cleaning the entire apartment of weapons, thing that are too dangerous for children and because they don't long there. When she was still doing it Steve and her neighbor opened the door and Nat was sitting on the floor and was drawing something and eating ice cream.