Hard to Love part 2

A normal day

He kissed her on her lips and then when he lied back down, she was making it on him comfortable and in that moment the baby kicked her, and she said: Ouch. He then asked: Is everything alright? She said: No, the baby just kicked me, and it is hurting me. Where exactly the baby kicked? Asked Steve and she took his hand and put in on her tummy where exactly the baby had kicked her. He then was rubbing it there in the place and after a while when he stopped, he hugged her and was rubbing her back and was singing a lullaby for her. So, she can sleep better, and she just said before she felled asleep: Thank you. He kissed her and then when she was sleeping, he was taking out his phone and looked a movie on it and after that he got to sleep too. In the morning when he woke up and got downstairs to make food. And when he was done, he got back upstairs and when she finally woke up, she was still sleepy, and he gave the tea he made, and she was smiling, and he kissed her forehead and when she drunk all it up, she lied back there to bed, and he was cuddling with her. After almost an hour he got up and she felled hungry and got to the kitchen with a bath rope and was first taking out anything and was eating it. When he came down and found her eating out from a cup of chocolate cream and was eating with peanut butter and some cheese sticks. And he said: Tasha... what are you eating? When you're hungry I can make you something healthier. She looked at him and said: I just mixed the salty and sweet. Said Nat and he just shook her head and wanted to take it from her, but she put to herself closely so he couldn't take it away. Then she was laughing and was then eating it again and after some time and the cup was empty and she was then search something else to eat.

She had found something and then was eating it and after some time when she was full, she got up and got to change and then got back down and wanted to clean it, but Lena was there and found the food and was eating it. Then Nat said: Hey. I wanted to clean here. Now you don't have to. Said Lena and was still eating the stuff and then she took out the little marshmallows and was throwing it on her. Then Lena took it to and there was a food fight. They enjoyed it too much that they continued and when the marshmallows where empty and all it the marshmallows on the floor and they were lying on the floor with them. Then they got up and the baby kicked again, and Nat sat up and put her hand on her belly and Lena then asked: What is wrong? Nothing, just your nice or nephew just kicked. Said Nat and Lena said: Oh. Can I feel it too? Yes. But I do really know if the baby kicks again, but you put it down here. Said Nat and took her hand and was putting it down where the baby kicked last time. They waited and waited for some time. Then after a long time the baby kicked again, and Lena felled it and said: Wow. That baby is strong like his or her father and mother. Nat then just smiled and when Steve and Bucky came up and found them sitting on the floor and where talking and he came just in and said loudly: Natasha. What did you do? She started it. Said Nat and Lena said: No, I did not. You did. Said Lena and then they just where laughing and Lena said: So, like the old time. Then Bucky looked at them and said: And who did all of that? Hmm. Said Nat and Lena was just looking at her and they were laughing, and the boys where just confused. So, when they helped them up and Nat wanted to clean it there, but Lena then said: Вы отдыхаете. Я сделал это, и ты беременна. Ложитесь. (You rest. I did it and you're pregnant. Lie down.) Nat was very against this and instead of lying down she sat down under the couch and was picking up a few of the floor and Steve noticed it and helped her up the couch and said: No, you don't have to do it. It's fine we will do it because you have the little one here. He kissed her tummy and then was helping by clean the marshmallows and then the kitchen. When they were done, they sat down in the living room, and they were talking. When everyone was there in the living room and where first talking and then after a while, they were playing a game and they she just fell sleep on his chest, and he noticed it and tried not to move so she will be wake up. So, then when she woke up, she was lying in her bed. He had carried her to their bed when she was still sleeping, and she was so confused but felled dizzy so got up and throws up. When she got back to bed and then she felled hungry, so she got down and found Steve making some food. She just sat down on the couch and was first just looking out of the window and then when the food was ready, she just was smelling it and got up. Then she was eating it and when she was done, she put the plate in the sink and then was washing it.

After that she got up and was going back to their bedroom and took her book and was reading it a book and when he came back up to her and found her reading. He lied down and was first playing with his phone but then he came on the idea that he can talk to the baby and that what he was then doing. He was talking with the baby, and she noticed it and put the book away and looked at them. She was smiling and he was still talking to the baby and after a while she asked: So, how is the talking with the baby? He looked up at her and kissed her tummy before he came up to her and answered: It's good but I missed the conversation part going. I would rather talk to you. He then kissed her on her lips and when he pulled away. When they weren't kissing anyone and he was saying: You know that I'm so proud of you that is doing this, all of this. You have so much pain and still you are normally doing stuff. He kissed her again and she was going it deeper. They were kissing together and kissing deeper and deeper and that incurred to put up her shirt and kissed her under it. Then he got down to her trousers and was putting it down and was kissing her there until he put his trousers down and got inside.

He got deeper and deeper and she didn't want to do it. So, she then said while he still inside her: Steve, can you stop. Please. He got out of her, and she just dressed herself and got up and then got to the bathroom with her phone. She was sitting there inside and looked herself in it and was crying. Then after a while she cried less and then and called first Clint's family phone and when nobody picked up, she tried Clint's sell phone, and he picked up. When he picked up, she was still crying and said: Clint, can you get me Laura... he obeyed and gave her the phone. Then Nat just said still crying: Laura... you are a good friend and you helped me through a bad time. So, this is one too. Steve and I had right now sex and we instead of enjoying it he kind of rape me today. And... right now I don't what I do... I can't trust him after this. I couldn't never trust a man after he raped me... I always got to Bucky, but since he is with Lena I can't just to him and... But you still love him? Asked Laura and Nat said: I think so, yeah. So, why you talk to him about it. That is the only advice I can give you right now. Said Laura and Nat was then wiping her tears away and said: Thank you of it. I feel better now. What did you to today? We got to a restaurant and then we went to the swimming pool and where swimming and now I am making dinner for them. I will end the conversation and you go talk to him about it okay. Said Laura and added: Goodbye. Nat then said: Goodbye to you too. When the conversation ended, she got up and wanted to talk with him, but he wasn't in the bed anymore. He was downstairs in the kitchen and when Nat found him there, she was making tea for herself.

He was still confused about what happened and then said after a while: So, do you want to talk about that happened or not? Maybe later. Said Nat and when she had drunk the tea and got back upstairs and was again crying. After 30 minutes he came up and found her crying. So, he came closer and was hugging her and said: What is wrong? Why are you crying sweetie? She was still crying and hugged her tighter and then after a while of time she stopped and said: I'm crying because you rape me. And I think that I can't trust you. Hey, stop there you can trust me. I'm so sorry about that I raped you. I taught that you enjoyed it too. Said Steve and was kissing her head and she was still sad, and he was kissing her again and said: Don't be sad. I'm so sorry about it, you must believe me. Then he kissed her again and then she asked: Can we cuddle? Sure. Said Steve and sat down on the bed and was cuddling her tightly. Then after a while when they were cuddling in silence she asked: Can I have a hot chocolate? Okay, I will do something else? Some food or some sweets? Nat was just shaking her head and he got down and was making the hot chocolate and when he got up and gave her the hot chocolate she was showering. He put it down on the nightstand and waited for her to come back to bed and when she finally did Natasha came back to bed.

She sat up and he gave her the hot chocolate and after that she drunk it all and then she lied back comfortable on him. Then before she felled asleep, she was crying again before she felled asleep. He noticed it and was first hugging her and then kissed her and was rubbing her back and bed was singing her a lullaby and she felled asleep. When she was sleeping, he felled asleep too after a while and then when she woke up at 3 am because she was hungry and felled dizzy. So, she got up and pucks and after while she was still sitting there on the floor and throws up, he got to her and held her hair and then rubbed her back. After that when she done, she sat down against the wall and when she was felling hungry, when he carried her back to bed, she lied there back in bed she said: Steve... can you make me food? He kissed her head and said: Sure, what do you want to eat mаленький? How about Pan Cakes? Said Nat and he lied her again and got downstairs. When he got down, he was making it and after15 minutes he came back upstairs, she was back sleeping again. He put it on the table and got back to bed. He then finally got back asleep.